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{{criminal}}[[file:hillaryhalverson.png|701x701px]]{{ib|title=[[File:Elviah.png|250x250px]]}} | |||
{{ibh|Holly Ann Halverson}} | |||
{{ibr|Aliases|elviah, elviah96, halvie96, hollyhalverson1996, hollyday.96}} | |||
{{ibr|Residence|New hope, Minnesota}} | |||
{{ibr|Age/DOB|June 6th, 1996 (28)}} | |||
{{ibr|Race|Norwegian-Irish}} | |||
{{ibr|Hyper-obsessions|Eating, grooming, fingering her STD ridden pussy to child porn, content farms, hiding from her haters, making shitty DeviantSHART, having an tickle fetish fanfictions and OCs}} | |||
{{ibr|Works|A bunch of random tributes to content farm channels as well as a few Gacha Life videos, the groomings of END, Lionarcher, Anglem, and possibly her entire friend group, making Jamie/Lich King suicidal, a bunch of autistic DeviantART fagfictions (with some even being NSFW!), the termination of Demin's YT channel.}} | |||
{{ibr|<s>Grooming victims</s> followers|The entireties of ASA, the legion and darknet, spooky heart (likely), thefallenreality, Combi, XingJane SquidKiller and like 9999 more people}} | |||
{{ibr|Enemies|Demin, the entirety of [[Scourge]] jamie/lich king, Hamas, Hezbollah and the Houthis in Yemen}} | |||
{{ibend}} | {{ibend}} | ||
== | [[file:elfviah.jpeg|thumb|500px|elviahs profile picture on most of her socials and the image most associated with her.]] | ||
'''Elviah''' <small><small>(Not to be confused with [[CollabVM|Elijah]])</small></small> is a morbidly obese mentally handicapped autistic bitch and groomer that may or may not be caseohs lost sister (or a genderswapped hybrid of [[Seamus]], CopperCab and CaseOh) who spends her time watching content farms and grooming kids to add to her personal army to destroy LE EVEL DAMIN AEND SKORUGCHE because they got her exposed for grooming END. When she was doxxed, she got SO butthurt she privated almost all her accounts and BAWWWED to her friends on her twitter DMS that she was being "stalked" she's also known for loving [[Kosher energy drink|Pissrael]] to the point of an aneurysm and sending her grooming victims to destroy things she deems as bad (examples are END and Jamie's reputation within her community and Demin's YT channel), so expect a <s>bunch of unregistered IPs to vandalise this page</s> LOL ANON EDITS DISABLED. | |||
==Overview of the lego potato== | |||
Shat out of Bernadette Gleason's box on June 6th, 1996; Holly Ann Halverson was born to a shitty family in the town of New Hope, Minnesota, and started her journey of failures. Shes infamous for things such as grooming END and terminating Demin's channels. | |||
As to her behaviour. She somewhat acts normal. Although when someone calls her out for what she’s doing she denies everything and starts spewing projectile diarrhea about how said person is “STALKING” her. And starts trying to make HIM look like the bad guy. She also LARPed about moving out of her parents house when she was 24. Despite the fact that her dox says otherwise. | |||
==History part 1: Pre-controversy era== | |||
MM- bare minimum | MM- bare minimum | ||
=== | ===The fanfiction=== | ||
{{quote|quinn ran his tongue along the siths breasts, catching her by surprise|elviah. Verse from said fanfiction.}} | {{quote|quinn ran his tongue along the siths breasts, catching her by surprise|elviah. Verse from said fanfiction.}} | ||
On a day in summer 2013, Elviah made her infamous SWTOR fanfic. The fanfic involved 2 characters from the afformentioned game having sex. Much later in late 2023, this was discovered by Demin after Elviah forgot to private her DeviantART and Wattpad accounts, and as you expect, it was milked to hell. Notable quotes from there are "quinn ran his tongue along the siths breasts" and "go wash up so the fun part can begun" '''(don't even bother deleting it Elviah, we have it archived)''' | |||
===Content farm addiction=== | |||
Yes you heard it right. Around late 2014, Elviah started watching a group of content farm channels known as "Darknet" and "The Legion" (OOOO SKARIII AAAAAAA) her addiction became so severe that she befriended the afformentioned content farms (including the ringleader of the group, DarkcornersYT) she was SO sexually attracted that she made shitty "tribute videos" about them. it's also notable to keep in mind that Elviah is a <big>'''GROWN WOMAN WHO UNIRONICILY WATCHES THIS SLOP.'''</big> | |||
<center><youtube>OKoiSAD05aQ</youtube><br> | |||
<small>what elviah genuinely likes to watch. please also keep in mind elviah is '''28'''</small></center> | |||
=== | ===The incident=== | ||
It's December 2019; when out of the blue, the fat ginger whore turns on Jamie and END(later groomed by Elviah) and gets everyone else in her inner circle to turn on them (only making it more obvious she's groomed them all), eventually making them both depressed. And this hit jamie hard, starting a downward spiral that goes down to this day. | |||
==History Part 2: ASA/anti-Elviah war era== | |||
===the | ===Aftershock - Birth of the Scourge=== | ||
[[File:Scourgeflag.png|thumb|200x200px|Scourge flag]] | |||
[[File:Scourgeflag.png|thumb|200x200px| | A few years would pass where Jamie and END would only get worse, it seemed Elviah would get away with what she did, until, in late 2022, they both stumbled upon an [[anarchy]] server called "sebs world of fun's server" where the two met many other people one of which being Demin, who at the time was in a sissy fight with some retarded (obviously white) packer with MPD that larped as a nigger called "xarski" (or his other personality, vladoijan) that quite literally sounded like a 3 year old with down syndrome. Then, Jamie founded a group called "sebs world of fun 2.0" (later rebranded to Cobra Kai and then Scourge); shortly after, END went inactive. Then the group fixated on trolling Elviah through shitty Wombo videos combined with Scourge joining her server (and getting banned not even a minute later), and then starting to dox her. With all those factors combined, Elviah privated her Discord and went radio silent... or at least that what they THOUGHT. | ||
=== | ===The grooming of END=== | ||
END was | END was Elviah's most notorious victim. Groomed by Elviah into betraying the Scourge and becoming a sick fuck. This will be split into 2 parts due to major events. | ||
==== | ====The grooming of END - Part 1 - Elviah's Fan==== | ||
The horrific reality was that in her inactivity, END was being groomed by Elviah, and gets groomed into making an account called "elviahs fan". through this account, she began to attack Scourge members and bulling the leader (Jamie) to the point of alchoholism and major depression. During this time, [[Warsaw]] and [[Fune]] appeared out of the blue (or out of one of the many anarchies) and not knowing what Elviah did, (at the time, the EF account was thought to be Elviah herself) joined Elviah/END's side, forming Legnet. however, Legnet being multi-member was short lived as Fune saw it as a waste of time and left. Shortly after, the dox on Elviah saw VERY major advancements (IE, her full name, and her city). Keep in mind, this was all done through TRIANGULATION. Shortly before Christmas, an account was made called "music to the ear" (later changed to "music to your ears"), but believe me, this was nowhere near the end of the conflict with END. | |||
[[file:whyis.png|thumb|left|300x300px|elviah moment !!!!!!111]] | [[file:whyis.png|thumb|left|300x300px|elviah moment !!!!!!111]] | ||
==== | ====The Grooming of END - Part 2, Elviah goes into hiding, more grooming and the shocking truth REVEALED ==== | ||
Somewhere in June 2023, MANCHESTER CITY OGISM managed to triangulate what was thought to be the exact location of Elviah's address (likely using a tree found in the background of one of her nigtoks). This caused Elviah's Fan to become very butthurt; and shortly after, END revealed himself as Elviah's Fan and summoned 2 more of Elviah's grooming victims (Tiko/Lionarcher and Anglem) and founded a nigger group called "ASA" (anal sex alliance or anti scourge alliance) and started attacking Russian Patriot and his son krz1985, started hating at least 70% of all races and started impersonating some other autist called "pete the kitty tv". in other news, Demin published Elviah's dox on Doxbin and had found Elviah's NSFW fanfic and shortly after, uploaded a troll video on November 1st under a troll account called "elviah/holly halverson". Not even a day later, Elviah strikes the video and gets the channel terminated for "CP". This is when Elviah finds out about the dox, and after doing so, she goes hushmode on ALL public social media, either privating her account or going inacitve on it. But shortly after, ibop, a scourge member, manages to get into contact with one of her MANY boyfriends (thefallenreality) and after he trolled him in DMS, Ibop manages to leak a twitter DM from TFR | |||
the DM goes as follows. | the accounts. DM goes as follows: | ||
[[File:elviahresponse.jpeg|thumb|troonviah responding to a comment made by the elviah/holly halverson troll channel. Of course she Thinks it was END and jamie that created the channel because she has fetal alcohol syndrome and shaken baby syndrome. If you see someone like this. Send them to an institution. It's the only way.]] | |||
im being fucking stalked (elviah) | im being fucking stalked (elviah) | ||
are u ok? (TFR) | are u ok? (TFR) | ||
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long story (elviah) | long story (elviah) | ||
[[File:Halp.png|thumb|200x200|the screenshot]] | [[File:Halp.png|thumb|200x200|the screenshot]] | ||
Back to END and the grooming victim gang, Tiko/Lionarcher and Anglem had gone inactive (likely to tend to there autistic vegan black trans queen, Holly Halverson), leaving END as the only ASA faggot left. And END began to shit out massive ragesharts (HAHAHAHAHA DEMIN IS A POUR JUDE AND I RAPED RUSSIA HAHAHA I ALSO MADE JAMIES LIFE SHIT HAHAHAHA). This went on until Demin [[tox]]xed ENDs account in an attempt to get her to fuck off forever. This didn't work, but something else did. Jamie, somehow found END's address and full name; This prompted END to cry all the way back to Momma Halverson, <s>finally ending the END/Elviah's Fan/ASA saga</s> the ASA larp is still going to this day, although it's no longer hindering the anti-Elviah oppression as progress is now being made (although not as much progress). Looks like Halverspaz is not wanting to let go of her grooming victim army yet. | |||
=====the extortion of snow cat===== | |||
One day. (I don’t remember when but it was somewhere here) END decided that he was going to impersonate someone called “pete the kitty TV” who was butthurt after some scourge members beat his ass. So END created a new discord account to impersonate PTK. Then. While impersonating PTK, END decided that he would try to extort a 12 year old girl called snow cat into sending him nudes. It actually worked. And END got snow cats nudes, snow cat herself (who was actually on discord) didnt even care. And when the PTK discord account admitted to being END. It became highly suspected that END was groomed by elviah into doing this. Due to END having the mental capacity of a chimpanzee with microcephaly. | |||
==History Part 3: Post-hiding Era== | |||
===Post-ASA elviah / the termination spree=== | |||
On March 1st 2024, Demin decided to upload one last trolling video on Elviah but this didn't last long, as Elviah crawled out of her own asshole to mass report the video, terminating his channel and making it temporarily lost media (Demin still has the original video file, he just cant access it). This reignited the Elviah war, and Demin proclaimed that on March 5th, he and his group (the Scourge) would mass-rape and hack all of Elviah's socials and leak all her DM'S. But due to his account being disabled 2 days before the attack, he was unable to command and the attack was unsuccsessful. Then in march, the northwood parkway rapist goes on a rampage and terminates a large amount of his channels and shortly after returns to TikTok, but stays silent about Demin. | |||
====ASA's return / the accusations finally confirmed. <s>(Teodor Akis groomed?)</s>==== | |||
On the night of 5/28/2024, <s>Teodor Akis was groomed by Elviah.</s> (NVM, THIS WAS JUST END LARPING) However, what makes this notable is this one screenshot. almost lost to time but saved at the last second. | |||
[[File:iwasgroomedbyelviah.jpg|400px|center]] | |||
This confirms the grooming accusations, finally making this long standing theory true, and as to an update. Teodor wasn't actually groomed. He was just being impersonated by the groomlarper END, likely being groomed by Elviah into doing this (like the pathetic loser she's). | |||
==History Part 4: The Downfall of Elviah== | |||
===Part 1 - The Loyals and Lunus's Lair=== | |||
[[File:lunus.jpg|200px|thumb|left|Screenshot taken by phase ultima/ericia. notice that lunus is trying his best to use decent insults.]] | |||
The Loyals and Lunus's Lair are 2 Pisscord servers inhabited by the Halverson, discovered by Demin while searching though the Legion/Darknet. Shortly after discovery, he sent The Loyals to the Scourge (and shortly after to Warsaw), which was then raided. As for Lunus's Lair, when Demin joined, he sent it to Warsaw and then he got banned shortly after. But his thirst for lulz was just too unquenchable, so he got phase ultima to join it and take the screenshot for him. The next day, Demin organizes a raid on Lunus's Lair. This raid would have everyone DM members of the server a copypasta exposing Elviah via linking to this article. What would happen next would change the war forever. | |||
{{quote|if you really think elviah did nothing wrong and demin is just a "StUPid STalKeR" read https://wiki.bonziworld.org/elviah for the truth.|the afformentioned copypasta}} | |||
=== Part 2: Alleycat defects (?) === | |||
One of the people that responded to the previous DM raid was none other then Alleycat, one of Elviah's close friends. She reads this article and then explains she wants to hear our side of the story (the true side). She then joins a GC with the gang, where, before they can explain anything, Lich King adds END to the group, sidetracking everyone into gangraping END instead of explaining to Alleycat Groomviah's crimes and getting information from her. What makes this worse is that the next day, Alleycat goes on vacation for allegedly half the summer. So we just need to wait for her to come home to get said information. | |||
[[File:exposed2.png|right|250px|Some usual END trolling that took place in the GC with alleycat]] | |||
=== Part 3: The interval === | |||
===={{rainbow|GAY MEN KISSING?!?!?}}==== | |||
On July 10th, 2024, Demin found that Elviah had favoured {{rainbow|GAY MEN KISSING}} on her DeviantART account. It ranged from just SFW gay relationship art to borderline porn, and there was a lot of it. You can find this art under her “teen wolf” category in her favourites. | |||
{{alert|<small>WARNING: LOOKING AT ANY OF THIS GAY ART THAT ELVIAH FAVOURITED WILL NOT ONLY MAKE YOU WANT TO BLEACH YOUR BRAIN WITH ACID AND GIVE YOU AIDS BUT IT WILL GIVE YOU EBOLA, DOWN SYNDROME AND NON-VERBAL AUTISM. <big>'''VIEW AT YOUR OWN CAUTION'''</big></small>}} | |||
====More info discovered ==== | |||
On July 24th 2024, Elviah's criminal record was found and leaked. Surprisingly, only one offence was found. It was a parking violation from late 2021 where she was driving on the wrong side of the road or however the Halverson is bad at driving. She had also received a second document for not paying the fine. Also through this they found her license plate. On the same day. Her LinkedIn was searched and another picture of her face was found, and it was used to bring back the Elviah troll channel. Alleycat was still on a vacation as you would expect. | |||
====august anti elviah operations==== | |||
In august, the anti elviah operation massively expanded. This started when demin got his friend antares (formerly known as RSM) joined and got more screenshots of lunuses server. However. When antares got banned. RGF joined the server and got some more screenshots. Then. Antares' group, antaria, joins the war against elviah. The SSY, lead by aziz hassan, is also contacted, but they dont plan to join the war soon. In other news, elviahs roblox account (UNCONFIRMED) is found. And END rebrands to “GENBITZ” and then goes inactive. With tiko/lionarcher being the last elviah groom victim. | |||
=== | ====september anti elviah oppressions==== | ||
On September 4th, elviahs email was leaked though demin taking an old youtube username (said username being "nobara36") that only appeared on google search. Due to the first 2 letters at the start of her email already being discovered, he was able to combine this information with the existing information and successfully tracked elviahs email. | |||
due to this, elviah changed her steam name to "ziggy" and either rebranded or deleted her main twitter account and her twitch account. she also changed her deviantart bio thing to "hiii o7". | |||
=== | ===the end and post-war events=== | ||
on the night of | ===the end==• | ||
on the night of september 6th, 2024, demin had a conversation with alleycat (who came back from vacation). the contents of said conversation are to remain private for now. but due to this conversation. the elviah war finally ended. thus ending a conflict that has been going on for almost 2 years. | |||
=== | ===post war events=== | ||
a few days after elviah disapeared, so did END. which further proved what happened to elviah. | |||
Nothing major happened until september 18th, when elviahs dox was removed from doxbin for an unknown reason. However. There is a chance doxbin support might be contacted and have the paste restored. | |||
On october 2nd, demin and some of his friends joined the minis lounge and started “smoking the pack” (trolling elviah stans after the war), | |||
As you would expect, they <s>instantly banned all the trolls</s> '''DELETED THE ENTIRE FUCKING SERVER''', of course, demin and his friends would have a good laugh. Then, Demin would announce a release date for the details of elviahs defeat, said date being '''december 1st'''. | |||
=Social Media Niggery== | |||
== | ===YouTube=== | ||
Elviah's deleted YouTube channel. She posts her autism tributes to her content farm BFF's and shitty Minecraft videos. She deletes any hate comments she finds on there almost instantly. She also made shitty Gacha Life videos with another autist she likely has lesbian e-sex with on Twitter DMs that calls herself "spooky heart" or "spop". What makes one of these videos ironic is that in one of the scenes she destroys her "haters" and "art thiefs", the second one is because at the time, Elviah couldn't create any art herself and instead used character creation games and commissions to make her shitty OCs, first one is ironic because her haters later destroyed HER. | |||
<big> '''none of these videos even work anymore (I doubt anyone even cares about archiving them since they were complete garbage)''' </big> | |||
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=== | ===Twitter=== | ||
This is widely concidered as Elviah's main platform. There, she spews liquid ass from her tweets that are basiclly just either her having an autistic fit of joy over some new thing coming out, her whining about sports, trash commission art, or her shitting and running arround about SWTOR dragon age gobamsktnf man's latest update/patch note with the occasional IRL stuff. Outside of her (now privated) tweets, she chats (and likely has e-sex) with her grooming victims and her 9999 boyfriends. was privated by Elviah after the November 30th anal rape. and deleted entirely after her email was leaked | |||
===DeviantART=== | |||
Where Elviah dumps a good chunk of her ebolAIDS, and one of the only platforms to survive her purge, she has been a member for a Long time. She also posted “vents” on her account (which are HILARIOUS pre-Demin ragesharts). A notable one is titled ”fury”, where she yaps about some rando getting raped or however the END is groomed. This is also where she posted her SWTOR first time fanfic (yes, the porn one). Recently, Demin has discovered that elviah favourited <big> <big> <big> <big> {{rainbow|'''''GAY MEN KISSING!!!'''''}} </big> </big> </big> </big>. You can find that under her “teen wolf” category in her favourites. '''WARNING: IT ''WILL'' MAKE YOU VOMIT''' | |||
====deviantart faggotry rageshart “vents”==== | |||
You can see her ragesharts below: click on the "[Expand]" link across the corresponding rageshart to see it. | |||
1: “fury” <div class="mw-collapsible mw-collapsed"> | |||
<pre> | |||
Angry doesn’t even start to describe it | |||
Disgusted | |||
Repulsed | |||
Furious | |||
Raging | |||
Ready to throw up | |||
Ready to throttle him | |||
Ready to start throwing punches | |||
How does one even start | |||
To comprehend something like this | |||
Its outrageously wrong | |||
Its hurtful | |||
Its disgusting | |||
I just want to strangle him | |||
For doing this to her | |||
… | |||
One year | |||
She kept it quiet | |||
For 1 year | |||
And 22 days | |||
She remembers the exact date it happened | |||
And told | |||
No one | |||
… | |||
It makes me sick | |||
Every nerve | |||
Every thought | |||
Every twist of my gut | |||
Just screams at me | |||
How repulsive this is | |||
… | |||
I want to kill him | |||
With my own bare hands | |||
Take my fingers | |||
And just wrap them around his throat | |||
Until he stops breathing | |||
Or worse | |||
Take dad’s shotgun to his dick | |||
Make sure he never uses it again | |||
Or | |||
Even better | |||
Blast his fucking kneecaps off | |||
Maybe then he’d understand | |||
That what he did | |||
Is NOT OK | |||
It is NEVER | |||
OK | |||
To do something like that | |||
EVER | |||
… | |||
I just want to hold her | |||
Hug her | |||
Tell her I love her | |||
And try to take all this away | |||
Tell her it’s not her fault | |||
No matter how guilty she feels | |||
It is HIS fault | |||
And HIS alone | |||
I want to take away her shame | |||
Take away her sadness | |||
Make everything all better | |||
… | |||
But how? | |||
How do I even start to fix this? | |||
What can I do? | |||
Where do I begin? | |||
How am I supposed to cope? | |||
How has she been coping? | |||
… | |||
I want revenge | |||
I know I shouldn’t | |||
I know it won’t change anything | |||
But it would feel pretty fucking good | |||
… | |||
That sick | |||
Twisted | |||
Fuck head | |||
Bastard | |||
How dare he | |||
... | |||
How dare he | |||
… | |||
… | |||
What am I supposed to do? | |||
… | |||
… | |||
I hate him | |||
An emotion | |||
I never knew I was capable of | |||
Is now flourishing | |||
In full swing | |||
And I am | |||
Embracing | |||
Every | |||
Last | |||
Drop | |||
</pre> | |||
</div> | |||
2: “what they say” <div class="mw-collapsible mw-collapsed"> | |||
<pre> | |||
What They Say | |||
She sheds like a cat | |||
You need to exercise more | |||
You eat all the time | |||
You eat and eat and eat and eat and eat | |||
You’re gonna be 1000 pounds someday if you keep eating like that | |||
She always tries to be so clever | |||
You keep picking at your face | |||
You're gonna have scars there for the rest of your life | |||
You’re not fat, you just have big muscles | |||
You’re gonna end up working at a McDonalds the rest of your life | |||
If you get to the point where you can’t walk, I’m not waiting I’m running | |||
You have no motivation | |||
None | |||
All you want to do is sit on your laptop and play games all day | |||
Reality sucks | |||
It doesn’t get any better | |||
You’re so stubborn | |||
You’re not funny | |||
You’re selfish and mean | |||
You never help around here | |||
I shouldn’t have to ask, you should just do | |||
You should just know to get things done around here | |||
People are not nice | |||
Why are you so scared to talk to people? | |||
You are afraid of everything | |||
I don’t understand | |||
What is a fandom? | |||
You’re so weird | |||
You’re 18, grow up! | |||
You could at least try to be there for your sisters every once in a while | |||
You can't keep forgetting | |||
You always forget everything | |||
You’re lazy | |||
You sit around all day and then wonder why I get mad | |||
Wake up! | |||
Pull your head out of your ass | |||
If you end up on the streets, too bad | |||
I’m not giving you a cent for college if you don’t have good grades | |||
I know you’re smarter than this | |||
You don’t try | |||
You make up excuses all the time | |||
If you do what they did, you’re done, I’m cutting you off | |||
You need to brush your teeth | |||
Oh my god, why does your breath smell so bad? | |||
It's awful | |||
You're gonna kill somebody | |||
You cannot wear that in public | |||
It's so ugly, that shirt is hideous | |||
The Chipmunks? Seriously? | |||
I don't care if it's Star Wars | |||
You're not keeping a shirt that says "Join the Dark Side" | |||
Get off, you're gonna squish me! | |||
'If I have something useful to say, I'll say it' | |||
But you never say anything! | |||
You don't ever help around here | |||
You should just know there's stuff to get done | |||
She's a little slow | |||
It takes a while for her to catch on | |||
You never fight back | |||
You always run away and hide because you want people to feel sorry for you | |||
Are you ever going to have a relationship with people? | |||
Why aren't you happy? Like all your friend's; they're happy | |||
Half the bag is gone, who do you think it was? | |||
I poke at her because she likes to sit there | |||
"Honesty is the best policy" | |||
You got nothing up here *points to head* and nothing in here *points to heart* | |||
You can't say that to someone - ever | |||
You never say that in front of people | |||
You lie, you always lie | |||
I can't see her with anybody | |||
It's ok, we still love you *sarcastically* | |||
I've never seen someone move so slow in all my life | |||
You're going to end up with a crappy life because you don't know how to talk to people | |||
You need to work on your issues | |||
What I Hear | |||
I’m a failure | |||
I’m a disappointment | |||
I'm worthless | |||
What I Believe | |||
I’m a failure | |||
I’m a disappointment | |||
I'm worthless | |||
EDIT: I've been adding on as people have said things. It just keeps getting worse and worse</pre> | |||
</div> | |||
3: “self harm” <div class="mw-collapsible mw-collapsed"> | |||
<pre> | |||
TRIGGER WARNING | |||
A razor blade | |||
A knife | |||
A scissors | |||
A box cutter | |||
A lighter | |||
A flame | |||
… | |||
It doesn’t matter how | |||
What matters is that it happens | |||
Thoughts and emotions take over our mind | |||
And we can't stop | |||
We know | |||
Because we’ve tried | |||
It doesn’t matter what you say to us | |||
The demons are louder | |||
The voices in our heads | |||
Increasing in volume | |||
Telling us we’re nothing | |||
Worthless | |||
A failure at life | |||
No one really cares about us | |||
They won’t miss us when we’re gone | |||
Why bother staying around | |||
When we’re just dragging them down anyway | |||
Some of us are stronger than others | |||
And resist the pull a little longer | |||
But no matter how we try | |||
To block out the sounds | |||
They always come back | |||
Whispering from the shadows | |||
Inviting us in for just one more | |||
… | |||
One more cut | |||
One more burn | |||
One more mark | |||
… | |||
</pre> | |||
</div> | |||
4: “wrong” <div class="mw-collapsible mw-collapsed"><pre>What’s wrong with me? | |||
I’m the worst hypocrite I’ve ever met | |||
I smile at them | |||
Then go slack face the second they turn away | |||
What do I even have right now? | |||
A couple distracting assignments? | |||
Stuff to keep my mind off what’s really going on? | |||
I’m not happy | |||
I don’t think I have been | |||
I actually think I’m losing part of my sanity | |||
Seriously | |||
It’s like there’s something in my head | |||
Cracking or waiting to break | |||
Doesn’t make any damn sense, I know | |||
I’m just…lost | |||
Guess it’s back to the scissors till I know what I’m doing | |||
It’s like I’ve run out of words to describe all this shit | |||
Yet the feelings keep changing | |||
Keep coming and going | |||
But never disappearing | |||
What am I even doing? | |||
I’m suffocating on nothing | |||
Just going day to day | |||
I have decided one thing though | |||
I may not be able to help myself anymore | |||
But I can help them | |||
The two people who still have a future | |||
Who still have a purpose | |||
Who know what they want in life | |||
Not like me | |||
I don’t know what I want | |||
Where to get it | |||
And even if I did | |||
I wouldn’t get it | |||
I do the minimum to keep myself going | |||
Because I know it won't last | |||
Not for long | |||
Maybe I’ll consider this charade my closing act | |||
… | |||
God’s I miss her | |||
So damn much | |||
She would’ve been 10 in May | |||
And she was such a good dog | |||
Such a damn good dog | |||
Maybe that’s where my sanity is going | |||
Maybe I’m losing my mind | |||
Because such a huge part of my childhood is gone | |||
I keep watching her video | |||
Over and over | |||
And the tears won't fucking stop | |||
God it just hurts | |||
Like someone’s stabbing in the heart | |||
Again and again | |||
I want her back | |||
I just want her to come walking out of her kennel | |||
And come lick these tears off my face | |||
Maybe then they’ll actually stop | |||
</pre> | |||
</div> | |||
5: “missing those days” <div class="mw-collapsible mw-collapsed"><pre> | |||
Do you remember them? | |||
Some days I think I’m still living them | |||
But then I wake up | |||
And realize it’s just a lie | |||
There’s no happiness | |||
Not anymore | |||
Sometimes I wonder if I’m making it up | |||
If I’m just doing this for attention | |||
But then it’s there | |||
It always comes back | |||
That sick feeling in your gut | |||
When you know you’re not wanted | |||
And there’s nothing you can do to change it | |||
So you just keep doing what you’re doing | |||
Pretending everything’s ok | |||
When it’s not | |||
And I mean | |||
Really | |||
Not | |||
Ok | |||
I hear all these stories | |||
Of how it gets better | |||
And I want to believe them | |||
But how can I? | |||
I’ve let them down so many times | |||
I’ve failed them | |||
I couldn’t protect them | |||
I couldn’t save her | |||
And now I’ve made certain that I won't forget | |||
These marks will last forever | |||
And I want them there | |||
I need them there | |||
If nothing else | |||
They are something to rely on | |||
When I’ve run out of options | |||
I realized something today | |||
I have no self | |||
No concept of who I am | |||
I do what I’m told without question | |||
I say what people want to hear | |||
Or what I think they want me to sound like | |||
I have no identity | |||
They wonder why I latch so hard onto fandoms | |||
Maybe it’s because the characters I create for them | |||
Are so I at least have some idea of who I am | |||
Or who I could be | |||
Or should be | |||
Oh fuck | |||
Who am I kidding? | |||
I’m just a mindless drone that’s done nothing but disappoint | |||
How can they stand it? | |||
Being so blind | |||
Do they not see what's going on here? | |||
Or am I just that good of an actor? | |||
I’m a terrible liar | |||
So it can't be that | |||
They must just believe the smile | |||
I’m good at faking that | |||
I always have been | |||
I’m just worried I’ll get caught | |||
What if they see them? | |||
The marks | |||
Then what? | |||
I won't admit anything to them | |||
No | |||
I’ll just keep my mouth shut as usual | |||
And let it pass over | |||
Like every other problem I’ve had | |||
That’s what normal people would call this | |||
A problem | |||
Those pills are sounding better and better every day | |||
Maybe I should just go for them | |||
See what happens | |||
See if the stories are true | |||
See if they really care | |||
Because right now | |||
I don’t think they do | |||
They think I’m fine | |||
Which I am | |||
To them | |||
Just not to me | |||
How can I be fine if I don’t even know who I am? | |||
How can I be fine when all I do is let people down? | |||
Fuck this shit | |||
I’ll find a way to deal with it | |||
</pre> | |||
</div> | |||
6: “failure” (originally called: “why im a failure)” <div class="mw-collapsible mw-collapsed"><pre> | |||
I don’t do good in school – not anymore | |||
I haven’t for a while | |||
I accept 50% on tests and thank god I somehow passed when I really didn’t | |||
I don’t study because I know I’m going to fail anyway, so what's the point | |||
I don’t have a future | |||
I don’t have a purpose | |||
I don’t see myself surviving past 20 years old | |||
And even if I do | |||
Nobody will want me | |||
Why would they? | |||
All I ever do is disappoint people | |||
I’m the butt of the joke because “I can take it” | |||
And why shouldn’t I take it? | |||
I’m the strong one | |||
I can handle anything | |||
They don’t need to know that I’m dying inside | |||
Or that I hide in the bathroom late at night with a scissors | |||
Because the pain is the only distraction from myself | |||
I can't think about reality for more than a few seconds | |||
Before some random scenario takes over my thoughts | |||
I’m a failure | |||
I | |||
Am | |||
A | |||
Failure | |||
And the giant F carved into my thigh proves it | |||
If I get scars, so what | |||
It’s not like I’ll ever find a man deserving enough to see them | |||
Hell, who am I kidding? | |||
It’s me that’s undeserving | |||
Why should I bother dressing nice or putting on makeup | |||
If there’s no one to impress anyway? | |||
Even when I do try | |||
I’m just another ghost in the walls | |||
Why do I hide away all the time? | |||
Every time I try to come out of my shell | |||
I am verbally beaten back into it | |||
And then yelled at more for hiding | |||
I can't win | |||
Everything I do is wrong | |||
They talk about how I always try to say clever things | |||
Maybe it’s because that’s how they’ll listen to anything I say | |||
They talk about how they were going to make a joke the second I leave the room | |||
Yea, like I haven’t heard that before | |||
They talk about how I have no motivation in life | |||
That I’ll never get anywhere because I never try | |||
Geez, I wonder where it’s all gone | |||
Once I finish venting, I feel nothing | |||
A numb pain as my thighs throb from the scissors | |||
I do it just to make sure I’m still alive | |||
Or at least surviving | |||
Maybe I should just get those pills | |||
Try them out | |||
Be rid of this vessel that chickens out of everything I want to do | |||
Maybe I should just get my wings | |||
I don’t know if it would work, but I could try | |||
I could try to get a purpose for my life | |||
Make something become real | |||
So that I am at least important to someone | |||
I let them both down so many times | |||
Hardly what a good big sister is supposed to do | |||
How am I supposed to help them | |||
When they’re always tearing up me? | |||
If the real world isn’t any better than what it’s like now | |||
Then I don’t want to be a part of it | |||
I’d rather go by my hand than by someone else’s in 20, 30 years from now | |||
When ISIS or some other lunatics cause the third world war | |||
It would be so easy | |||
Just grab the bottle and keep swallowing till they were all gone | |||
It would be so peaceful once it’s over | |||
No more pain | |||
No more fear | |||
No more failure | |||
Just endless bliss in worlds I’ve only been dreaming of | |||
Can't they see I don’t belong here? | |||
I’m not meant to stay on this planet | |||
I have to find a way out | |||
I have to stop failing everyone | |||
</pre> | |||
</div> | |||
7: “cry for help” <div class="mw-collapsible mw-collapsed"><pre> | |||
Sitting here looking at my screen | |||
I’ve been so lost | |||
Feeling empty | |||
I have no purpose | |||
Nothing left anymore | |||
It’s just numb and blank | |||
No option of either or | |||
What happened to me | |||
Made me feel this way | |||
It’s like I’m just gone | |||
A shell to naught say | |||
The thoughts I do have | |||
Are all rather dark | |||
Pills, notes, | |||
That sort of hark | |||
But who’s there to tell | |||
Nobody cares | |||
And even if they did | |||
Life’s different than theirs | |||
They don’t understand | |||
What’s there to explain | |||
That I’m lost or alone | |||
Or that they’re to blame | |||
There’s nothing anymore | |||
I don’t even try | |||
Nothing to want or have | |||
Easier to just cry | |||
But I don’t | |||
And I won't | |||
For there’s no tears to shed | |||
Why bother staying alive | |||
If you’re better off dead | |||
I’m not living my life | |||
Hell I’m barely surviving | |||
I don’t face much strife | |||
But I’m certainly not thriving | |||
Existing might be | |||
A much better choice | |||
Of words I won’t utter | |||
With my disappearing voice | |||
It’s strange to explain | |||
This state of being | |||
Maybe someone understands | |||
Or maybe it’s just me | |||
There’s a phrase I hold onto | |||
Run daily through my head | |||
You might recognize it | |||
The words Sherlock said | |||
“Alone is what I have | |||
Alone protects me” | |||
The rest doesn’t matter | |||
Not the way I see | |||
Lately it’s all I have | |||
The words of the fandoms | |||
To get me through the day | |||
Like a bit of an anthem | |||
SuperWhoLock | |||
One I’m hoping you’ll know | |||
Keeps the gear going | |||
But they run rather slow | |||
Destiel, Johnlock, | |||
Sabriel too | |||
Seeking OTP love | |||
To replace those untrue | |||
This void of my life | |||
Which I’m trying to fill | |||
Seems pointless at best | |||
Maybe now’s for the pill | |||
I used to run scared | |||
From words such as these | |||
Now I write them myself | |||
Such strange irony | |||
You may want to help | |||
But I wouldn’t say try | |||
There’s nothing left to save here | |||
Just a few little goodbyes | |||
If there is no purpose | |||
No future I can foresee | |||
Then what’s left to hold onto | |||
Nothing for me to be | |||
I don’t have any goals | |||
I’ve tried making some | |||
But they’ve not worked before | |||
Left me nothing but numb | |||
I don’t really want to go | |||
But I shouldn’t stay | |||
The things I’ve done | |||
Such a burden they weigh | |||
Maybe it’s a good thing | |||
She’s still around | |||
My sister, that is | |||
Though she’s not quite sound | |||
“You’re my best buddy” she says | |||
Has said since we were young | |||
It’s wouldn’t be fair of me | |||
If this upon her I flung | |||
And so I’ll stick around | |||
Just a little bit longer | |||
If I do find a purpose | |||
Perhaps I’ll get stronger | |||
This note I’ll never show her | |||
She can’t ever see | |||
The weakness I hide | |||
That’s been inside me | |||
They’re a blessing, these notes | |||
Have always kept me sane | |||
As an outlet, an exit | |||
From the real world of pain | |||
I say I feel nothing | |||
That I don’t really care | |||
Yet I wrote this in rhyme | |||
Maybe there is still a prayer | |||
</pre> | |||
</div> | |||
8: “confessions” <div class="mw-collapsible mw-collapsed"><pre> | |||
My heart pounds in my ears | |||
Love | |||
The one word that can both excite | |||
And scare | |||
But which is it? | |||
That in itself is a giant leap forward | |||
One that I’m not ready to take | |||
Only 2 months into this | |||
And it’s already reached that? | |||
A part of me doubts | |||
Another part doesn’t know what to think | |||
It’s possible | |||
Not likely | |||
But possible | |||
Right? | |||
I thought it took years | |||
To ever truly know a person | |||
Perhaps it’s how we met | |||
Or just the way I treated him | |||
Blind to the meaning of nice? | |||
It seems strange | |||
To someone raised in this fucked up society | |||
Where rules control our everyday life | |||
Where expectations are set | |||
And people ‘just know’ what things mean | |||
Yet there we both sat | |||
Miles apart | |||
Looking at the same screen | |||
And as I explained things | |||
I realized | |||
Things are not always what they seem | |||
Not every was raised like me | |||
Not everyone sees things like I do | |||
The world from his perspective | |||
Was something totally new | |||
Raised in total darkness | |||
Never knowing anything else | |||
I guess I really made a change | |||
By just being myself | |||
Already I see a difference | |||
In the way he’s talking | |||
Could I really have this kind of impact? | |||
By just being me? | |||
I never thought I’d see or hear | |||
Such confessions that I did | |||
Apologizes for something | |||
He really can't control | |||
Begging me not to go | |||
When we haven’t even met | |||
To be needed so strongly | |||
That he has nothing else to hold onto | |||
Is that why we were fated to meet? | |||
There has to be something to this | |||
Never before have I seen | |||
Such dedication from someone | |||
But there are so many different sides of him | |||
It’s hard to tell which is the right one | |||
Everyone has their perks and faults | |||
I sit here and ponder | |||
Where do I want this to go? | |||
There’s a reason we met | |||
There’s no denying that | |||
The question of why though | |||
Has yet to be answered | |||
I want it to be something more | |||
Or at least I think I do | |||
It’s hard to tell through all this fear | |||
Of not knowing what to do | |||
Childhood scars | |||
That never fully healed | |||
Still haunt me to this day | |||
And leave my heart in a shield | |||
It’s exciting and thrilling | |||
And terrifying all at once | |||
How do you know what is what? | |||
What is truly love? | |||
</pre> | |||
</div> | |||
9: “endeavours” <div class="mw-collapsible mw-collapsed"><pre> | |||
As I sit here looking at the screen | |||
I wonder where to begin | |||
It’s hard to believe it’s already been a couple months | |||
It seems like just a few weeks | |||
It began with the game | |||
That’s hardly a surprise | |||
With the grouping and missions | |||
Help was bound to arise | |||
Initial conversations | |||
Were just music at first | |||
But then we moved on | |||
And discovered something worse | |||
At first it was curiosity | |||
Mixed with a bit of fear | |||
But I swallowed my doubts | |||
And let myself out | |||
And look at where we are now | |||
It’s not something I would’ve expected | |||
No one could’ve seen this coming | |||
I’ve been told it’s a bad idea | |||
But they don’t know you | |||
The way that I do | |||
They’re all just too judgmental | |||
They may claim it’s not so | |||
But I do know | |||
The thoughts that they don’t vocalize | |||
It’s called stepping out | |||
Letting go of your thoughts | |||
And learning to see through other eyes | |||
So we’re totally different | |||
What's wrong with that? | |||
Diversity gets you farther | |||
Than a close-minded approach | |||
It’s an interesting situation | |||
This thing we’ve got going | |||
From two different worlds | |||
That are more alike than you know | |||
A Jedi and a Sith | |||
Two ends of the scale | |||
Are they really enemies | |||
When both want to prevail? | |||
What makes one side wrong | |||
And the other right | |||
One path is the dark | |||
The other is the light | |||
Neither can exist | |||
Without the other | |||
A strange concept to consider | |||
To redeem or to fall | |||
In the end | |||
Does it matter? | |||
We’re both just people | |||
Living our day to day lives | |||
The nighttime holds the talking | |||
The future – a surprise | |||
The unknown should be embraced | |||
Not left to sit alone | |||
What better way to know the world | |||
Than by stepping out of your zone | |||
A new friendship has blossomed | |||
One that no one quite understands | |||
But as long as both are happy | |||
Who really gives a damn? | |||
It was fate that brought them together | |||
Of that much I am certain | |||
An opportunity to make a change | |||
Will be taken advantage | |||
If a spark is lit along the way | |||
Let it grow into a fire | |||
Don’t throw away | |||
A chance like this | |||
Life likely won't give you another | |||
See where it goes | |||
Go with the flow | |||
And the rewards to all will be inspired | |||
</pre> | |||
</div> | |||
10: “unbeautiful” <div class="mw-collapsible mw-collapsed"><pre> | |||
I try to quiet my mind | |||
But it’s all over the place | |||
My job, my friends, just life in general | |||
It’s all around me spinning so fast | |||
Like a whirlwind that can't be stopped | |||
No matter how much I want it to | |||
The mind grows weary | |||
The spirit does as well | |||
Listening to stories these past couple days | |||
Have left it drained and empty | |||
It has been this way for a while | |||
But there had been something left before | |||
Now all that remains | |||
Is a very empty hole | |||
A void | |||
A want | |||
A selfish need | |||
Watching other enjoy their happiness | |||
But also suffering through their struggles | |||
The love is there | |||
The pain is real | |||
At least they have someone | |||
To call their own | |||
While I sit and wait | |||
Giving advice that for experience I don’t even have | |||
I’m trying to be supportive | |||
I’ve always been good at that | |||
Having everyone else’s back | |||
And being there to talk when no one else will | |||
Everyone relies on me | |||
And I’m ok with that | |||
But when will they start to see | |||
I need someone to give back | |||
Being single isn’t all bad | |||
But when you’re the only one | |||
Watching all the couples around you | |||
Having their own special fun | |||
Wishing you could have that too | |||
Not just someone to talk with | |||
But someone to call your own | |||
To be that special being in your life | |||
When you’re feeling all alone | |||
It’s like a nagging void in my soul | |||
I just can't seem to shake | |||
It’s not because I’m weak | |||
Or have no self esteem | |||
It’s because I’ve been strong for so long | |||
I want someone to take care of me | |||
To hold my hand or cuddle with | |||
Watching movies on the couch | |||
To be randomly kissed and smile about it | |||
To have secret inside jokes | |||
To feel like I’m wanted | |||
And not just for my usefulness | |||
But because I feel so alone | |||
People around me say I’m special | |||
Then why does it not feel so? | |||
I love seeing other people happy | |||
Let’s be real – who doesn’t? | |||
But why is it when they say I deserve the best | |||
Am I left with nothing? | |||
I don’t want to wait | |||
It’s getting too hard | |||
And as shallow as it seems | |||
Everyone wants to be wanted | |||
So why does no one want me? | |||
I’ll never say these things out loud | |||
Nobody else needs to know | |||
They see me as the strong confident one | |||
Not the one who feels alone | |||
But maybe it’s because it’s been so long | |||
Everyone else is finding theirs | |||
That special someone to be with them | |||
To show them that they care | |||
I don’t | |||
I can't | |||
I won't tell them I’m alone | |||
If anything I’ll put on an act | |||
A show that I’m just fine | |||
It doesn’t need to bother them | |||
That the loneliness is killing me inside | |||
I can't bear the wait | |||
It’s like a bomb waiting to blow | |||
But maybe in a few more months | |||
I won't feel so alone | |||
Maybe I’ll get lucky | |||
And find that guy just for me | |||
Or maybe I’m just fooling myself | |||
And there’s really no one waiting | |||
Still it’s hard to guess this soon | |||
Before I’m even there | |||
I’ll have to wait | |||
Despite the pain | |||
And life had better be fair | |||
I can't be alone | |||
Not anymore | |||
The wait has taken its toll | |||
I’ve been seeing too many couples around | |||
In groups of people I know | |||
They’re all so happy | |||
Putting arms around waists | |||
And kisses on cheeks | |||
Why don’t I have that? | |||
Am I not one to be desired? | |||
All this self-doubt looks and sounds so damn shallow | |||
Not my fault I was cursed with emotions | |||
I’m human | |||
Aren’t we all? | |||
Being human means we know how to feel | |||
And while helping others always feels great | |||
Sometimes we need help too | |||
I hate admitting it | |||
Like I said – I’m the strong one | |||
But I’m lonely as hell | |||
Despite all the people around me | |||
There’s a void not even God can fill | |||
I’ve tried and I’ve tried to push it away | |||
But it’s like a damn mosquito bite | |||
It’s not gone till it bleeds | |||
And Band-aids aren’t enough to heal it | |||
I’ve been rambling awhile | |||
And have pretty much run out of things to say | |||
But the hole is still there | |||
I can feel it like a heavy stone on my heart | |||
I should probably catch some sleep tonight | |||
Maybe morning will be brighter | |||
</pre> | |||
</div> | |||
11: “decisions” <div class="mw-collapsible mw-collapsed"><pre> | |||
Don’t take anything for granted | |||
When life gives you an opportunity | |||
Take it | |||
Don’t question it | |||
Enjoy the simple things in life | |||
You don’t know how long they will last | |||
Be free | |||
Be wild | |||
Do things you never otherwise done | |||
Realize that you have a purpose in life | |||
And while you may not see it right now | |||
It’s there | |||
Waiting for just the right moment to be discovered | |||
Grab it | |||
Take it | |||
Hold onto it like it’s the last thing you’ll see | |||
Live life to its fullest | |||
Because its worth living | |||
Just look around you | |||
How can the world not be full of little miracles? | |||
Was it fate? | |||
I think so | |||
Everything happens for a reason | |||
And right now | |||
That reason is to complete | |||
To fill a hole that no one else could | |||
To step in when I needed it most | |||
Will I keep questioning it? | |||
Probably | |||
<big> | But I will never turn my back on a thing like this | ||
Never again will I doubt such a rare chance | |||
This is what was meant to be | |||
And I will accept it to my every advantage | |||
Regardless of where it takes me in the future | |||
I can do this | |||
I will do this | |||
And I will enjoy every second of it | |||
</pre> | |||
</div> | |||
12: “conflictions” <div class="mw-collapsible mw-collapsed"><pre> | |||
Looking out the window | |||
My mind starts to wonder | |||
Is this just a farce? | |||
Or is there something better? | |||
It’s hard to see reality | |||
When all I see are pics of you and me | |||
Snapchat’s not the greatest source | |||
But it’s all I got | |||
More than nothing I suppose | |||
Questions start to flood my mind | |||
How long will this last? | |||
Is there even a point? | |||
Our conversations are kinda shallow | |||
But is that really so wrong? | |||
In a world where girls are Barbies | |||
Or at least expected to be | |||
It’s hard to turn away a guy | |||
Who says he likes me | |||
Even though he’s across the globe | |||
It can't be all wrong | |||
Can it? | |||
I guess it is always me | |||
Who’s asking the real questions | |||
“How many siblings? | |||
Favorite animal? | |||
Do you have plans for college?” | |||
I start to suspect there’s something else hidden | |||
In that part of your mind that I can't see | |||
I haven’t even heard your voice | |||
But still I call you ‘boyfriend’ | |||
Maybe this is a bad idea | |||
Maybe I should just turn away | |||
But after years of being alone | |||
Its attention that I crave | |||
To finally be called cute | |||
And told I’m really pretty | |||
But is there a point where I should stop | |||
When he asks for pics of other things? | |||
I won't cave yet | |||
I’m not some Barbie | |||
But what am I supposed to think | |||
When half the time he ignores me? | |||
It’s always me who snaps him first | |||
Perhaps that is a good thing | |||
After all I’m out all day | |||
While he is at home snoring | |||
Still there is a part of me | |||
That’s blaring with the warning | |||
That maybe I should still back out | |||
Before something happens | |||
I want to trust him | |||
Even though I shouldn’t | |||
But how do you turn away | |||
</pre> | |||
</div> | |||
13: “realisations” <div class="mw-collapsible mw-collapsed"><pre> | |||
I feel like a fool | |||
For not realizing it before | |||
You never were the one for me | |||
I have no feelings anymore | |||
You were a lazy heartless idiot | |||
Who never gave a damn | |||
I was a crazy sightless spirit | |||
Who cared only for the glam | |||
I'm done with your excuses | |||
You obviously don't care | |||
Next time you come to my door | |||
I will not be here | |||
</pre> | |||
</div> | |||
14: “empty inside” <div class="mw-collapsible mw-collapsed"><pre> | |||
The hour felt like a instant | |||
The days felt like a minute | |||
Unable to think clearly anymore | |||
My thoughts are all about you | |||
A week before our three month mark | |||
You messed up | |||
And broke my heart | |||
Driving down the road that night | |||
I could barely focus | |||
My mind was a blur | |||
My heart was pounding | |||
All I could feel was a dull pain throbbing inside me | |||
Even today, three days after that painful hour | |||
I feel like the wrong person | |||
Empty, with no purpose to my days | |||
All my old habits have to be broken | |||
And as they break | |||
So do the shattered pieces of my heart | |||
You were my everything | |||
You gave me something to look forward to | |||
Now I have nothing left | |||
But to vent my frustration to the world | |||
Nobody cares | |||
And nobody knows | |||
Because I'm keeping this secret | |||
Close to my soul | |||
It doesn't matter what they say | |||
I'll still think about you | |||
Everyday | |||
We may pass by in the hallways | |||
But its not the same | |||
When you used to put your arms around me | |||
I felt as if I could fly | |||
All that time we spent together | |||
Doesn't it mean anything to you? | |||
You claimed we could still be friends | |||
But do you really mean it? | |||
You haven't said a word to me | |||
Not ever since we ended it | |||
This pain won't ever go away | |||
And I wish that it would stop | |||
Its distracting me from reality | |||
Keeping me in our lost fantasy | |||
When I had you | |||
I was complete | |||
But now all that's left | |||
Is a gaping hole in me | |||
I thought that we could make this work | |||
But you did not agree | |||
You said you didn't have any time | |||
Especially not for me | |||
I didn't want to believe you then | |||
And still I futiely tried | |||
To keep you where I wanted you | |||
Back when you were mine | |||
I still keep my phone with me | |||
Every single day | |||
Waiting for that text from you | |||
Even if it just says "Hey" | |||
Maybe someday there will be a chance | |||
For us to get back together | |||
But until that day comes for us | |||
I'll be here waiting...forever | |||
</pre></div> | |||
===TikTok=== | |||
{{noinfo}} | |||
Her most AIDS inducing platform (second only to her DA) where she posts IRL shitty phonecam videos. 90% of them are just her using some shitty filter and the other 10% is just her making TikToks of her driving or doing things in her house. She also sometimes includes her pets (that she possibly raped) in the videos. Is no different then any other ShitTok sharter unless you know what she did. Recently she has rebranded her tiktok account to “hollyday.96”, most likely after her court documents were leaked. | |||
==Dickriders== | |||
===Note for anyone here=== | |||
<big> If your in this part of the article. if you defect to our side. we will put you in a more favorable light.</big> | |||
===spooky heart=== | ===spooky heart=== | ||
'''spooky heart''' or '''spop''' is one of | '''spooky heart''' or '''spop''' is one of Elviah's biggest dickriders, she likely has lesbian e-sex with Elviah while she's addicted to content farms (even more then Elviah is due to the unholy amount of art she has of them) just like Elviah. She posts garbage art about the content farms she's addicted to on her Instagram and Twitter. Plays on shartcorners Minecraft server. She, Elviah and some other autist called "Alleycat" make up another shitty group called "the mini legion". Not very much to say about her other then the fact she's Elviah's #1 fan. (or is she?) [[File:troonviah art by scock.jpg|thumb|right|300px|One of spooky shart's works. It OBVIOUSLY had to be of the Halverson herself.]] | ||
===END (powerword: Alec Courtney)=== | ===END (powerword: Alec Courtney)=== | ||
Elviah's most notable victim, and the first one to have been groomed. She's a terminally disabled Coloradoan spastic that forcibly spergs out unhinged horrid insults like "WHY DOES RUSSIA HATES ME" or "[Person here] IS GAZA STRIP NOW HAHAHA" or "I LOVE SUICIDE I SEX ON THEM EVERY DAY" and gets trolled the shit out of by the Scourge and it's members. And before she went schizo with her END persona, she went under the alias "Elviah's Fan" and impersonated Elviah herself. She also impersonated some rando called "pete the kitty TV" who sends his own info and acts almost the same as END. What makes this even more schizo is that '''END, under her PTK alt, has sent and extorted CP multiple times!''' Also what's notable is that before she was groomed, she (along with Jamie) was bullied ruthlessly by Elviah. <s> Most recently ungroomed himself and no longer follows the Halverson '''allegedly'''</s> NVM. Got groomed back into the circlejerk by elviah LMFAO | |||
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===Tiko/Lionarcher=== | |||
{{noinfo}} | {{noinfo}} | ||
A terminally online sperg thats either END's alt or a grooming victim. Claims to be ENDs GF and acts the same as END minus the impersonations. Faced the same unfortunate fate as END, but unlike END, he doesn't rage in ALL CAPS. Basically a copy of END overall. | |||
===thefallenreality/farose123u=== | ===thefallenreality/farose123u=== | ||
{{noinfo}} | {{noinfo}} | ||
[[File:TFR1.jpg|thumb|left]] [[File:TFR2.jpg|thumb|left]] | [[File:TFR1.jpg|thumb|left]] [[File:TFR2.jpg|thumb|left]] | ||
A tranny autist from Port Said, Egypt that ruthlessly despises Demin and the Scourge for: '''you guessed it! "stalking" Elviah for "no reason" ''' | |||
Yaps on twitter to either advertise his Roblox and Discord or send furry art accounts random videos. Supports Elviah despite the fact that she ruthlessly supports Israel and that TFR is a Palestine supporter. Overall just a spaz. | |||
===everyone else=== | ===everyone else=== | ||
'''ANGLIM''' - | '''ANGLIM''' - Welsh spaz that stole Jamie's GF's phone and told him via that phone's text that she was "going to break her legs so she never walks again". Much later ANGLIM was groomed by Elviah but she was VERY inactive and was last seen in 2023. | ||
'''darkcornersYT''' - Terminally retarded content farm that leads an army of content farms called "the darknet" also owns a shitty Minecraft server ('''play.darkscorner.net'''). Feel free to rape! | |||
==Enemies== | |||
===Jamie/Lich king=== | |||
The Soviet (Originates from all 15 nations) | |||
Irish founder of Scourge. One of Elviah's worst turned out people. He was hit so hard he became an alcoholic and got IBD. Usually the target for most of Elviah's attacks (especially from Elviah's grooming victims.) | |||
===Demin=== | |||
The one who brought Elviah's empire crashing down and one of the OG members of Scourge. He was the one to dox her and the one who wrote this article. Is a crucial part of the Anti-Elviah movement dispite him going on long periods of inactivity that can last for months. Elviah got SO butthurt that she went on a termination spree and terminated <s>half</s> ALL BUT 2 of his total accounts (most of them were abandoned years ago) so this didnt really affect him since he moved to VidLii. He has recently returned to YouTube. | |||
===Everyone else/to be added=== | |||
* BRODY MIXES - trolled the shit out of END and tiko when demin was away. He is a fan of the Kansas City Chiefs. Has ties to bodroum.just like demin. | |||
* russian patriot - a Chechnian russian that’s usually the second target of ENDs schizobabbling | |||
<small>'''(Flashback to that russia vendetta)'''</small> | |||
* ariota4291 | |||
* lighting striker | |||
* communist japan empire | |||
* | |||
== | ==The Great Elvian War== | ||
{{WIP}} | |||
{{ib|title=[[File:war.png|250x250px]]}} | |||
{{ibh|The Great Elvian war}} | |||
{{ibr|Fought between|2022-2024 (still ongoing)}} | |||
{{ibr|sides|Scourge and allies [[file:scourgeflag.png|25px]] | |||
Elviah and ASA [[file:elviah.png|25px]] [[file:Asaflag.png|25px]] }} | |||
{{ibr|Outcome|STILL ONGOING}} | |||
{{ibend}} | |||
The Elvian War is a war fought between 2022 and 2024. It originally started As a trolling operation against Elviah but after END was groomed, it quickly evolved into an online war where both sides were doing attacks. The Scourge did major attacks such as doxxing Elviah and toxxing ENDs account multiple time while Elviah did attacks such as terminating Demin's channels and grooming more people to use as dildos. As of now, SCOURGE is winning the war due to Elviah having to go into hiding. Even though ASA says THEY are winning the war, even though they aren't. | |||
In late 2022, when they defeated sebs world of fun. Jamie (now known as Lich King) (at the time the owner of Scourge) came out about how Elviah and her friends had ruthlessly bullied him and END (this was before he was groomed) to the point of depression in December 2019. This prompted a response from OG Scourge members (such as ariota, SFBall, vexplade, and the infamous BAD USER STALKER, Demin) to make Wombo videos and attempt to dox her, shortly after in December 2022, END gets groomed by elviah and goes inactive; then returns on Elviahs side as “Elviah's Fan” , forms some larp group called “Legnet”. And for some reason FUNE enters the war on Elviah's side then leaves a week later. | |||
After hard fighting, servers getting nuked, And trolling, progress is finally made. Elviah's Fan comes out as END and gets her other fuckbuddies (Tiko and Anglem) to join in on Legnet, now rebranded to ASA, Jamie's mental health drops severely and starts believing in END’s autistic fantasies. In better news, Elviah gets doxxed even more (her address was a faildox) and everything goes back into states of trolling. UNTIL... | |||
On November 30th, Elviah finds out about the doxxing efforts and goes into hiding, privating all her accounts, and then BAWWWs to her friends about how Demin is “STOKANG” her. Then lord xenu (another Scourge member) does a withdrawal from the Elviah war. Where most people agree to this withdrawal with a few people that still want to fight with END. Demin then resorts to toxxing ENDs account. Then the war ends, UNTIL... | |||
In February 2024, Elviah starts terminating Demin's channels on YouTube. This prompts an attack to get revenge on her. The attack was set for March 5th, however due to demin’s Discord account getting disabled, the attack was a failure. No new advances (other than END coming back) until June 2024, when 2 Elviah related servers were found and raided, then Alleycat came forward and wanted to learn about elviahs crimes committed by Elviah. However before she could tell us anything, she went on vacation. Making Elviah's other actions a mystery until the end of summer. Then in August, elviahs criminal record is found and leaked. Elviah then becomes very pissy and rebrands to hollyday.96 on TikTok, | |||
After a short intermission in time, her email and court documents were leaked. Shortly after, Elviah was defeated, however, the circumstances of the victory are to remain secret until december 1st. | |||
==How to spot an Elviah rapedog== | |||
You can quite easily spot an Elviah rapedog if they have any of the following traits listed below. | |||
* They support Israel and despise Palestine to the point where the fluid in their head that they were born with instead of a brain starts to boil. (mostly found in ASAfags) | |||
* They search, save, possess, and distribute CP. | |||
* They call demin86 a "STUPID STALKER" and misspell his name as "denim". | |||
* They watch and are friends with the content farm youtuber DarkCornersYT. And/or | |||
* They say Elviah did no wrong and deny everything she did (even though one good read of this article would change that.) | |||
* They are racist to every race you can think of (mainly Russians and Slavic countries) | |||
* They spaz out to the point where they look like they belong in a condom commercial. (mostly done by ASAfags) | |||
==Crimes committed by Elviah== | |||
1: Possession of child pornography - elviah used END (while impersonating pete the kitty) to blackmail snow cat (11-13 years old) into sending him her nudes. (Which were likely sent to elviah) | |||
2: 3-5 counts of contributing to the Delinquency of a minor - groomed END (and many others) into becoming racist, and likely ruined his psyche due to the fact that she rages in caps all the time and now just acts like a spaz in general. | |||
I know elviah did way more then that but none of them are actual crimes and moreso lulzworthy doings. | |||
==Vandalism attempts== | |||
Surprisingly, there has only been 1 direct vandalism attempt in this pages history, (all others were made by bots that spam the entire wiki) despite the fact that this article is part of what's raping her to death. | |||
This vandalism attempt was done by some spaz called "jasiahescobar6" that replaced the gallery and the infobox with some rageshart about "mr grouse" | |||
and random images. Unknown if this was an Elviah groom victim or just some rando who got bored and jacked off on the page | |||
==trivia== | |||
<big> <big> <big> '''Did you know that?'''</big> </big> </big> | |||
* Elviah had a dead dog that was named “bella”? | |||
* Elviah also has a cat with 3 legs (elviah used a hacksaw to cut the 4th one off) named ziggy? (not to be confused with the [[User:Ziggy|Warsaw admin]]) | |||
* Elviah likely owns and jacks off to nudes of a 12 year old that END extorted called snow cat? | |||
* Elviah’s sister, Jessica Mariy Halverson, is terrible at driving and has 18 records relating to driving? | |||
* Elviah is Norwegian and irish? | |||
==gallery== | ==gallery== | ||
<gallery> | <gallery> | ||
file:dearelviah.png| | file:dearelviah.png|Anti-Elviah propaganda. | ||
file:OFFICER DEMIN.png| | File:Baldviah.png | ||
file:elviahsituation.png| | File:ClownGayviah.jpg | ||
file:lionarcher.png| | file:OFFICER DEMIN.png|Elviah's greatest fear. | ||
File:le hanging halverson2.png| | file:elviahsituation.png|Pretty much elviah when she found out the doxxing. | ||
file:lionarcher.png|Tiko/Lionarcher IRL | |||
File:le hanging halverson2.png|Elviah: Behind The Screen. | |||
File:halverbear.png | File:halverbear.png | ||
File:halverbearalt.png| | File:halverbearalt.png|Alternate version. | ||
File:lazy.png|[https://wiki.bonziworld.org/index.php?title=Elviah&oldid=18600 an elviah rapedog's pathetic and lazy attempt at vandalizing this page.] | File:lazy.png|[https://wiki.bonziworld.org/index.php?title=Elviah&oldid=18600 an elviah rapedog's pathetic and lazy attempt at vandalizing this page.] Stay mad, Holly. | ||
File:Mentality.jpeg| | File:Mentality.jpeg| The garbage commissioned by Elviah (like this) is one of the many reasons why she belongs in an asylum. | ||
File:what.webp| | File:what.webp|Just as confused as you are. | ||
File:endcomesoutofthecloset.jpg |Congratulations END! we all still love you. you have been invited to join the child porn army. | |||
File:court1.jpeg | |||
File:court2.jpeg | |||
File:hollyannhalverson.jpg | |||
File:elviahfeet.jpeg|You didn't want it but now you have it. Avert your eyes kids. | |||
File:hell.jpeg|ELVIAH LOVES GAY PORN! [UNCENSORED VERSION https://wiki.bonziworld.org/File:Hellbutworse.png] | |||
file:Elviahlookalike.jpeg|Elviah <s>lookalike</s> eats a TOY. Instantly regrets it. | |||
File:shenotlikeus.png|Why you crying like a bitch aint you tired? Trying to strike a chord and it’s probably a-minorrrr | |||
File:WHAT.jpeg|The similarities are eerie. | |||
File:elviree.png|elviah when she gets her CP stash leaked. | |||
File:halversonshitart.png|more halvershit art. | |||
File:halverfoot.jpeg|elviahs dog has a foot fetish. | |||
File:HalversonAmongUs3.png | |||
File:HalversonAmongUs2.png | |||
File:HalversonAmongUs.png | |||
File:Wombo 1.mp4 | |||
</gallery> | </gallery> | ||
==external links== | ==external links== | ||
===socials=== | ===socials=== | ||
{{youtube|@Elviah}} JewTube channel (BALEETED) | |||
{{discorduser|elviah|293521592485543936}} spedcord account (BALEETED) | |||
[https://discord.com/invite/9Cn36DD a discord server home to many of elviahs rapedogs, Troll to your hearts desire.] (DELETED BY LUNUS HIMSELF AFTER TPSSEC RAIDED IT WITH THEIR SERVER INVITE AND GORE) | |||
{{twitter|@Elviah_96}} Main Twatter (BALEETED) | |||
{{twitter|@halvie_96}} Old personal Twatter (HUGBOXXED) | |||
{{instagram|elviah.96}} Instagram (BALEETED) | |||
{{ | {{instagram|kingsviah}} an instagram account made for some short lived ship between elviah and some content farm nigger called “kingsfire” | ||
{{instagram|the_mini_legion}} likely a shared account owned by both spooky shart AND gayviah. | |||
{{tiktok|@hollyday.96}} Shitock (HUGBOXXED) | |||
{{deviantart|elviah}} DeviantSHART | |||
[https://steamcommunity.com/profiles/76561198279013125 Steam] (BALEETED) | |||
[https://twitch.tv/elviah/home Twitch] (BALEETED) | |||
[https://linkedin.com/in/hollyhalverson1996 LinkedIn] | |||
[https://www.roblox.com/users/3994805908/profile?friendshipSourceType=PlayerSearch roblox] (UNKNOWN IF THIS IS ACTUALLY HER) | |||
=== | ===Lolmilking/Trolling=== | ||
[https://www.vidlii.com/watch?v=GGkxldXuOLD Reupload of the afformentioned trolling video on the Elviah/Holly Halverson troll channel on vidlii ] | |||
[https://docs.google.com/document/d/1jlqJSFnSlgD5-T_MkJk3T9w1HJi5uCni0p_qufI8LbU/edit Elviah's fanfiction (ARCHIVED) ] | |||
{{Groomzinge}} |
Latest revision as of 16:58, 19 November 2024
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Holly Ann Halverson | |
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Aliases | elviah, elviah96, halvie96, hollyhalverson1996, hollyday.96 |
Residence | New hope, Minnesota |
Age/DOB | June 6th, 1996 (28) |
Race | Norwegian-Irish |
Hyper-obsessions | Eating, grooming, fingering her STD ridden pussy to child porn, content farms, hiding from her haters, making shitty DeviantSHART, having an tickle fetish fanfictions and OCs |
Works | A bunch of random tributes to content farm channels as well as a few Gacha Life videos, the groomings of END, Lionarcher, Anglem, and possibly her entire friend group, making Jamie/Lich King suicidal, a bunch of autistic DeviantART fagfictions (with some even being NSFW!), the termination of Demin's YT channel. |
The entireties of ASA, the legion and darknet, spooky heart (likely), thefallenreality, Combi, XingJane SquidKiller and like 9999 more people | |
Enemies | Demin, the entirety of Scourge jamie/lich king, Hamas, Hezbollah and the Houthis in Yemen
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Elviah (Not to be confused with Elijah) is a morbidly obese mentally handicapped autistic bitch and groomer that may or may not be caseohs lost sister (or a genderswapped hybrid of Seamus, CopperCab and CaseOh) who spends her time watching content farms and grooming kids to add to her personal army to destroy LE EVEL DAMIN AEND SKORUGCHE because they got her exposed for grooming END. When she was doxxed, she got SO butthurt she privated almost all her accounts and BAWWWED to her friends on her twitter DMS that she was being "stalked" she's also known for loving Pissrael to the point of an aneurysm and sending her grooming victims to destroy things she deems as bad (examples are END and Jamie's reputation within her community and Demin's YT channel), so expect a bunch of unregistered IPs to vandalise this page LOL ANON EDITS DISABLED.
Overview of the lego potato
Shat out of Bernadette Gleason's box on June 6th, 1996; Holly Ann Halverson was born to a shitty family in the town of New Hope, Minnesota, and started her journey of failures. Shes infamous for things such as grooming END and terminating Demin's channels.
As to her behaviour. She somewhat acts normal. Although when someone calls her out for what she’s doing she denies everything and starts spewing projectile diarrhea about how said person is “STALKING” her. And starts trying to make HIM look like the bad guy. She also LARPed about moving out of her parents house when she was 24. Despite the fact that her dox says otherwise.
History part 1: Pre-controversy era
MM- bare minimum
The fanfiction
“ | quinn ran his tongue along the siths breasts, catching her by surprise | ” |
—elviah. Verse from said fanfiction. |
On a day in summer 2013, Elviah made her infamous SWTOR fanfic. The fanfic involved 2 characters from the afformentioned game having sex. Much later in late 2023, this was discovered by Demin after Elviah forgot to private her DeviantART and Wattpad accounts, and as you expect, it was milked to hell. Notable quotes from there are "quinn ran his tongue along the siths breasts" and "go wash up so the fun part can begun" (don't even bother deleting it Elviah, we have it archived)
Content farm addiction
Yes you heard it right. Around late 2014, Elviah started watching a group of content farm channels known as "Darknet" and "The Legion" (OOOO SKARIII AAAAAAA) her addiction became so severe that she befriended the afformentioned content farms (including the ringleader of the group, DarkcornersYT) she was SO sexually attracted that she made shitty "tribute videos" about them. it's also notable to keep in mind that Elviah is a GROWN WOMAN WHO UNIRONICILY WATCHES THIS SLOP.
what elviah genuinely likes to watch. please also keep in mind elviah is 28
The incident
It's December 2019; when out of the blue, the fat ginger whore turns on Jamie and END(later groomed by Elviah) and gets everyone else in her inner circle to turn on them (only making it more obvious she's groomed them all), eventually making them both depressed. And this hit jamie hard, starting a downward spiral that goes down to this day.
History Part 2: ASA/anti-Elviah war era
Aftershock - Birth of the Scourge
A few years would pass where Jamie and END would only get worse, it seemed Elviah would get away with what she did, until, in late 2022, they both stumbled upon an anarchy server called "sebs world of fun's server" where the two met many other people one of which being Demin, who at the time was in a sissy fight with some retarded (obviously white) packer with MPD that larped as a nigger called "xarski" (or his other personality, vladoijan) that quite literally sounded like a 3 year old with down syndrome. Then, Jamie founded a group called "sebs world of fun 2.0" (later rebranded to Cobra Kai and then Scourge); shortly after, END went inactive. Then the group fixated on trolling Elviah through shitty Wombo videos combined with Scourge joining her server (and getting banned not even a minute later), and then starting to dox her. With all those factors combined, Elviah privated her Discord and went radio silent... or at least that what they THOUGHT.
The grooming of END
END was Elviah's most notorious victim. Groomed by Elviah into betraying the Scourge and becoming a sick fuck. This will be split into 2 parts due to major events.
The grooming of END - Part 1 - Elviah's Fan
The horrific reality was that in her inactivity, END was being groomed by Elviah, and gets groomed into making an account called "elviahs fan". through this account, she began to attack Scourge members and bulling the leader (Jamie) to the point of alchoholism and major depression. During this time, Warsaw and Fune appeared out of the blue (or out of one of the many anarchies) and not knowing what Elviah did, (at the time, the EF account was thought to be Elviah herself) joined Elviah/END's side, forming Legnet. however, Legnet being multi-member was short lived as Fune saw it as a waste of time and left. Shortly after, the dox on Elviah saw VERY major advancements (IE, her full name, and her city). Keep in mind, this was all done through TRIANGULATION. Shortly before Christmas, an account was made called "music to the ear" (later changed to "music to your ears"), but believe me, this was nowhere near the end of the conflict with END.
The Grooming of END - Part 2, Elviah goes into hiding, more grooming and the shocking truth REVEALED
Somewhere in June 2023, MANCHESTER CITY OGISM managed to triangulate what was thought to be the exact location of Elviah's address (likely using a tree found in the background of one of her nigtoks). This caused Elviah's Fan to become very butthurt; and shortly after, END revealed himself as Elviah's Fan and summoned 2 more of Elviah's grooming victims (Tiko/Lionarcher and Anglem) and founded a nigger group called "ASA" (anal sex alliance or anti scourge alliance) and started attacking Russian Patriot and his son krz1985, started hating at least 70% of all races and started impersonating some other autist called "pete the kitty tv". in other news, Demin published Elviah's dox on Doxbin and had found Elviah's NSFW fanfic and shortly after, uploaded a troll video on November 1st under a troll account called "elviah/holly halverson". Not even a day later, Elviah strikes the video and gets the channel terminated for "CP". This is when Elviah finds out about the dox, and after doing so, she goes hushmode on ALL public social media, either privating her account or going inacitve on it. But shortly after, ibop, a scourge member, manages to get into contact with one of her MANY boyfriends (thefallenreality) and after he trolled him in DMS, Ibop manages to leak a twitter DM from TFR the accounts. DM goes as follows:
im being fucking stalked (elviah) are u ok? (TFR) not really (elviah) who the fuck is stalking you? (TFR) someone called denim (elviah) and his friends (elviah) long story (elviah)
Back to END and the grooming victim gang, Tiko/Lionarcher and Anglem had gone inactive (likely to tend to there autistic vegan black trans queen, Holly Halverson), leaving END as the only ASA faggot left. And END began to shit out massive ragesharts (HAHAHAHAHA DEMIN IS A POUR JUDE AND I RAPED RUSSIA HAHAHA I ALSO MADE JAMIES LIFE SHIT HAHAHAHA). This went on until Demin toxxed ENDs account in an attempt to get her to fuck off forever. This didn't work, but something else did. Jamie, somehow found END's address and full name; This prompted END to cry all the way back to Momma Halverson, finally ending the END/Elviah's Fan/ASA saga the ASA larp is still going to this day, although it's no longer hindering the anti-Elviah oppression as progress is now being made (although not as much progress). Looks like Halverspaz is not wanting to let go of her grooming victim army yet.
the extortion of snow cat
One day. (I don’t remember when but it was somewhere here) END decided that he was going to impersonate someone called “pete the kitty TV” who was butthurt after some scourge members beat his ass. So END created a new discord account to impersonate PTK. Then. While impersonating PTK, END decided that he would try to extort a 12 year old girl called snow cat into sending him nudes. It actually worked. And END got snow cats nudes, snow cat herself (who was actually on discord) didnt even care. And when the PTK discord account admitted to being END. It became highly suspected that END was groomed by elviah into doing this. Due to END having the mental capacity of a chimpanzee with microcephaly.
History Part 3: Post-hiding Era
Post-ASA elviah / the termination spree
On March 1st 2024, Demin decided to upload one last trolling video on Elviah but this didn't last long, as Elviah crawled out of her own asshole to mass report the video, terminating his channel and making it temporarily lost media (Demin still has the original video file, he just cant access it). This reignited the Elviah war, and Demin proclaimed that on March 5th, he and his group (the Scourge) would mass-rape and hack all of Elviah's socials and leak all her DM'S. But due to his account being disabled 2 days before the attack, he was unable to command and the attack was unsuccsessful. Then in march, the northwood parkway rapist goes on a rampage and terminates a large amount of his channels and shortly after returns to TikTok, but stays silent about Demin.
ASA's return / the accusations finally confirmed. (Teodor Akis groomed?)
On the night of 5/28/2024, Teodor Akis was groomed by Elviah. (NVM, THIS WAS JUST END LARPING) However, what makes this notable is this one screenshot. almost lost to time but saved at the last second.
This confirms the grooming accusations, finally making this long standing theory true, and as to an update. Teodor wasn't actually groomed. He was just being impersonated by the groomlarper END, likely being groomed by Elviah into doing this (like the pathetic loser she's).
History Part 4: The Downfall of Elviah
Part 1 - The Loyals and Lunus's Lair
The Loyals and Lunus's Lair are 2 Pisscord servers inhabited by the Halverson, discovered by Demin while searching though the Legion/Darknet. Shortly after discovery, he sent The Loyals to the Scourge (and shortly after to Warsaw), which was then raided. As for Lunus's Lair, when Demin joined, he sent it to Warsaw and then he got banned shortly after. But his thirst for lulz was just too unquenchable, so he got phase ultima to join it and take the screenshot for him. The next day, Demin organizes a raid on Lunus's Lair. This raid would have everyone DM members of the server a copypasta exposing Elviah via linking to this article. What would happen next would change the war forever.
“ | if you really think elviah did nothing wrong and demin is just a "StUPid STalKeR" read https://wiki.bonziworld.org/elviah for the truth. | ” |
—the afformentioned copypasta |
Part 2: Alleycat defects (?)
One of the people that responded to the previous DM raid was none other then Alleycat, one of Elviah's close friends. She reads this article and then explains she wants to hear our side of the story (the true side). She then joins a GC with the gang, where, before they can explain anything, Lich King adds END to the group, sidetracking everyone into gangraping END instead of explaining to Alleycat Groomviah's crimes and getting information from her. What makes this worse is that the next day, Alleycat goes on vacation for allegedly half the summer. So we just need to wait for her to come home to get said information.
Part 3: The interval
GAY MEN KISSING?!?!?
On July 10th, 2024, Demin found that Elviah had favoured GAY MEN KISSING on her DeviantART account. It ranged from just SFW gay relationship art to borderline porn, and there was a lot of it. You can find this art under her “teen wolf” category in her favourites.
⚠⚠⚠ ALERT ⚠⚠⚠ WARNING: LOOKING AT ANY OF THIS GAY ART THAT ELVIAH FAVOURITED WILL NOT ONLY MAKE YOU WANT TO BLEACH YOUR BRAIN WITH ACID AND GIVE YOU AIDS BUT IT WILL GIVE YOU EBOLA, DOWN SYNDROME AND NON-VERBAL AUTISM. VIEW AT YOUR OWN CAUTION |
More info discovered
On July 24th 2024, Elviah's criminal record was found and leaked. Surprisingly, only one offence was found. It was a parking violation from late 2021 where she was driving on the wrong side of the road or however the Halverson is bad at driving. She had also received a second document for not paying the fine. Also through this they found her license plate. On the same day. Her LinkedIn was searched and another picture of her face was found, and it was used to bring back the Elviah troll channel. Alleycat was still on a vacation as you would expect.
august anti elviah operations
In august, the anti elviah operation massively expanded. This started when demin got his friend antares (formerly known as RSM) joined and got more screenshots of lunuses server. However. When antares got banned. RGF joined the server and got some more screenshots. Then. Antares' group, antaria, joins the war against elviah. The SSY, lead by aziz hassan, is also contacted, but they dont plan to join the war soon. In other news, elviahs roblox account (UNCONFIRMED) is found. And END rebrands to “GENBITZ” and then goes inactive. With tiko/lionarcher being the last elviah groom victim.
september anti elviah oppressions
On September 4th, elviahs email was leaked though demin taking an old youtube username (said username being "nobara36") that only appeared on google search. Due to the first 2 letters at the start of her email already being discovered, he was able to combine this information with the existing information and successfully tracked elviahs email. due to this, elviah changed her steam name to "ziggy" and either rebranded or deleted her main twitter account and her twitch account. she also changed her deviantart bio thing to "hiii o7".
the end and post-war events
===the end==• on the night of september 6th, 2024, demin had a conversation with alleycat (who came back from vacation). the contents of said conversation are to remain private for now. but due to this conversation. the elviah war finally ended. thus ending a conflict that has been going on for almost 2 years.
post war events
a few days after elviah disapeared, so did END. which further proved what happened to elviah.
Nothing major happened until september 18th, when elviahs dox was removed from doxbin for an unknown reason. However. There is a chance doxbin support might be contacted and have the paste restored.
On october 2nd, demin and some of his friends joined the minis lounge and started “smoking the pack” (trolling elviah stans after the war),
As you would expect, they instantly banned all the trolls DELETED THE ENTIRE FUCKING SERVER, of course, demin and his friends would have a good laugh. Then, Demin would announce a release date for the details of elviahs defeat, said date being december 1st.
Social Media Niggery=
YouTube
Elviah's deleted YouTube channel. She posts her autism tributes to her content farm BFF's and shitty Minecraft videos. She deletes any hate comments she finds on there almost instantly. She also made shitty Gacha Life videos with another autist she likely has lesbian e-sex with on Twitter DMs that calls herself "spooky heart" or "spop". What makes one of these videos ironic is that in one of the scenes she destroys her "haters" and "art thiefs", the second one is because at the time, Elviah couldn't create any art herself and instead used character creation games and commissions to make her shitty OCs, first one is ironic because her haters later destroyed HER. none of these videos even work anymore (I doubt anyone even cares about archiving them since they were complete garbage)
This is widely concidered as Elviah's main platform. There, she spews liquid ass from her tweets that are basiclly just either her having an autistic fit of joy over some new thing coming out, her whining about sports, trash commission art, or her shitting and running arround about SWTOR dragon age gobamsktnf man's latest update/patch note with the occasional IRL stuff. Outside of her (now privated) tweets, she chats (and likely has e-sex) with her grooming victims and her 9999 boyfriends. was privated by Elviah after the November 30th anal rape. and deleted entirely after her email was leaked
DeviantART
Where Elviah dumps a good chunk of her ebolAIDS, and one of the only platforms to survive her purge, she has been a member for a Long time. She also posted “vents” on her account (which are HILARIOUS pre-Demin ragesharts). A notable one is titled ”fury”, where she yaps about some rando getting raped or however the END is groomed. This is also where she posted her SWTOR first time fanfic (yes, the porn one). Recently, Demin has discovered that elviah favourited GAY MEN KISSING!!! . You can find that under her “teen wolf” category in her favourites. WARNING: IT WILL MAKE YOU VOMIT
deviantart faggotry rageshart “vents”
You can see her ragesharts below: click on the "[Expand]" link across the corresponding rageshart to see it.
1: “fury”
Angry doesn’t even start to describe it Disgusted Repulsed Furious Raging Ready to throw up Ready to throttle him Ready to start throwing punches How does one even start To comprehend something like this Its outrageously wrong Its hurtful Its disgusting I just want to strangle him For doing this to her … One year She kept it quiet For 1 year And 22 days She remembers the exact date it happened And told No one … It makes me sick Every nerve Every thought Every twist of my gut Just screams at me How repulsive this is … I want to kill him With my own bare hands Take my fingers And just wrap them around his throat Until he stops breathing Or worse Take dad’s shotgun to his dick Make sure he never uses it again Or Even better Blast his fucking kneecaps off Maybe then he’d understand That what he did Is NOT OK It is NEVER OK To do something like that EVER … I just want to hold her Hug her Tell her I love her And try to take all this away Tell her it’s not her fault No matter how guilty she feels It is HIS fault And HIS alone I want to take away her shame Take away her sadness Make everything all better … But how? How do I even start to fix this? What can I do? Where do I begin? How am I supposed to cope? How has she been coping? … I want revenge I know I shouldn’t I know it won’t change anything But it would feel pretty fucking good … That sick Twisted Fuck head Bastard How dare he ... How dare he … … What am I supposed to do? … … I hate him An emotion I never knew I was capable of Is now flourishing In full swing And I am Embracing Every Last Drop
2: “what they say”
What They Say She sheds like a cat You need to exercise more You eat all the time You eat and eat and eat and eat and eat You’re gonna be 1000 pounds someday if you keep eating like that She always tries to be so clever You keep picking at your face You're gonna have scars there for the rest of your life You’re not fat, you just have big muscles You’re gonna end up working at a McDonalds the rest of your life If you get to the point where you can’t walk, I’m not waiting I’m running You have no motivation None All you want to do is sit on your laptop and play games all day Reality sucks It doesn’t get any better You’re so stubborn You’re not funny You’re selfish and mean You never help around here I shouldn’t have to ask, you should just do You should just know to get things done around here People are not nice Why are you so scared to talk to people? You are afraid of everything I don’t understand What is a fandom? You’re so weird You’re 18, grow up! You could at least try to be there for your sisters every once in a while You can't keep forgetting You always forget everything You’re lazy You sit around all day and then wonder why I get mad Wake up! Pull your head out of your ass If you end up on the streets, too bad I’m not giving you a cent for college if you don’t have good grades I know you’re smarter than this You don’t try You make up excuses all the time If you do what they did, you’re done, I’m cutting you off You need to brush your teeth Oh my god, why does your breath smell so bad? It's awful You're gonna kill somebody You cannot wear that in public It's so ugly, that shirt is hideous The Chipmunks? Seriously? I don't care if it's Star Wars You're not keeping a shirt that says "Join the Dark Side" Get off, you're gonna squish me! 'If I have something useful to say, I'll say it' But you never say anything! You don't ever help around here You should just know there's stuff to get done She's a little slow It takes a while for her to catch on You never fight back You always run away and hide because you want people to feel sorry for you Are you ever going to have a relationship with people? Why aren't you happy? Like all your friend's; they're happy Half the bag is gone, who do you think it was? I poke at her because she likes to sit there "Honesty is the best policy" You got nothing up here *points to head* and nothing in here *points to heart* You can't say that to someone - ever You never say that in front of people You lie, you always lie I can't see her with anybody It's ok, we still love you *sarcastically* I've never seen someone move so slow in all my life You're going to end up with a crappy life because you don't know how to talk to people You need to work on your issues What I Hear I’m a failure I’m a disappointment I'm worthless What I Believe I’m a failure I’m a disappointment I'm worthless EDIT: I've been adding on as people have said things. It just keeps getting worse and worse
3: “self harm”
TRIGGER WARNING A razor blade A knife A scissors A box cutter A lighter A flame … It doesn’t matter how What matters is that it happens Thoughts and emotions take over our mind And we can't stop We know Because we’ve tried It doesn’t matter what you say to us The demons are louder The voices in our heads Increasing in volume Telling us we’re nothing Worthless A failure at life No one really cares about us They won’t miss us when we’re gone Why bother staying around When we’re just dragging them down anyway Some of us are stronger than others And resist the pull a little longer But no matter how we try To block out the sounds They always come back Whispering from the shadows Inviting us in for just one more … One more cut One more burn One more mark …
4: “wrong”
What’s wrong with me? I’m the worst hypocrite I’ve ever met I smile at them Then go slack face the second they turn away What do I even have right now? A couple distracting assignments? Stuff to keep my mind off what’s really going on? I’m not happy I don’t think I have been I actually think I’m losing part of my sanity Seriously It’s like there’s something in my head Cracking or waiting to break Doesn’t make any damn sense, I know I’m just…lost Guess it’s back to the scissors till I know what I’m doing It’s like I’ve run out of words to describe all this shit Yet the feelings keep changing Keep coming and going But never disappearing What am I even doing? I’m suffocating on nothing Just going day to day I have decided one thing though I may not be able to help myself anymore But I can help them The two people who still have a future Who still have a purpose Who know what they want in life Not like me I don’t know what I want Where to get it And even if I did I wouldn’t get it I do the minimum to keep myself going Because I know it won't last Not for long Maybe I’ll consider this charade my closing act … God’s I miss her So damn much She would’ve been 10 in May And she was such a good dog Such a damn good dog Maybe that’s where my sanity is going Maybe I’m losing my mind Because such a huge part of my childhood is gone I keep watching her video Over and over And the tears won't fucking stop God it just hurts Like someone’s stabbing in the heart Again and again I want her back I just want her to come walking out of her kennel And come lick these tears off my face Maybe then they’ll actually stop
5: “missing those days”
Do you remember them? Some days I think I’m still living them But then I wake up And realize it’s just a lie There’s no happiness Not anymore Sometimes I wonder if I’m making it up If I’m just doing this for attention But then it’s there It always comes back That sick feeling in your gut When you know you’re not wanted And there’s nothing you can do to change it So you just keep doing what you’re doing Pretending everything’s ok When it’s not And I mean Really Not Ok I hear all these stories Of how it gets better And I want to believe them But how can I? I’ve let them down so many times I’ve failed them I couldn’t protect them I couldn’t save her And now I’ve made certain that I won't forget These marks will last forever And I want them there I need them there If nothing else They are something to rely on When I’ve run out of options I realized something today I have no self No concept of who I am I do what I’m told without question I say what people want to hear Or what I think they want me to sound like I have no identity They wonder why I latch so hard onto fandoms Maybe it’s because the characters I create for them Are so I at least have some idea of who I am Or who I could be Or should be Oh fuck Who am I kidding? I’m just a mindless drone that’s done nothing but disappoint How can they stand it? Being so blind Do they not see what's going on here? Or am I just that good of an actor? I’m a terrible liar So it can't be that They must just believe the smile I’m good at faking that I always have been I’m just worried I’ll get caught What if they see them? The marks Then what? I won't admit anything to them No I’ll just keep my mouth shut as usual And let it pass over Like every other problem I’ve had That’s what normal people would call this A problem Those pills are sounding better and better every day Maybe I should just go for them See what happens See if the stories are true See if they really care Because right now I don’t think they do They think I’m fine Which I am To them Just not to me How can I be fine if I don’t even know who I am? How can I be fine when all I do is let people down? Fuck this shit I’ll find a way to deal with it
6: “failure” (originally called: “why im a failure)”
I don’t do good in school – not anymore I haven’t for a while I accept 50% on tests and thank god I somehow passed when I really didn’t I don’t study because I know I’m going to fail anyway, so what's the point I don’t have a future I don’t have a purpose I don’t see myself surviving past 20 years old And even if I do Nobody will want me Why would they? All I ever do is disappoint people I’m the butt of the joke because “I can take it” And why shouldn’t I take it? I’m the strong one I can handle anything They don’t need to know that I’m dying inside Or that I hide in the bathroom late at night with a scissors Because the pain is the only distraction from myself I can't think about reality for more than a few seconds Before some random scenario takes over my thoughts I’m a failure I Am A Failure And the giant F carved into my thigh proves it If I get scars, so what It’s not like I’ll ever find a man deserving enough to see them Hell, who am I kidding? It’s me that’s undeserving Why should I bother dressing nice or putting on makeup If there’s no one to impress anyway? Even when I do try I’m just another ghost in the walls Why do I hide away all the time? Every time I try to come out of my shell I am verbally beaten back into it And then yelled at more for hiding I can't win Everything I do is wrong They talk about how I always try to say clever things Maybe it’s because that’s how they’ll listen to anything I say They talk about how they were going to make a joke the second I leave the room Yea, like I haven’t heard that before They talk about how I have no motivation in life That I’ll never get anywhere because I never try Geez, I wonder where it’s all gone Once I finish venting, I feel nothing A numb pain as my thighs throb from the scissors I do it just to make sure I’m still alive Or at least surviving Maybe I should just get those pills Try them out Be rid of this vessel that chickens out of everything I want to do Maybe I should just get my wings I don’t know if it would work, but I could try I could try to get a purpose for my life Make something become real So that I am at least important to someone I let them both down so many times Hardly what a good big sister is supposed to do How am I supposed to help them When they’re always tearing up me? If the real world isn’t any better than what it’s like now Then I don’t want to be a part of it I’d rather go by my hand than by someone else’s in 20, 30 years from now When ISIS or some other lunatics cause the third world war It would be so easy Just grab the bottle and keep swallowing till they were all gone It would be so peaceful once it’s over No more pain No more fear No more failure Just endless bliss in worlds I’ve only been dreaming of Can't they see I don’t belong here? I’m not meant to stay on this planet I have to find a way out I have to stop failing everyone
7: “cry for help”
Sitting here looking at my screen I’ve been so lost Feeling empty I have no purpose Nothing left anymore It’s just numb and blank No option of either or What happened to me Made me feel this way It’s like I’m just gone A shell to naught say The thoughts I do have Are all rather dark Pills, notes, That sort of hark But who’s there to tell Nobody cares And even if they did Life’s different than theirs They don’t understand What’s there to explain That I’m lost or alone Or that they’re to blame There’s nothing anymore I don’t even try Nothing to want or have Easier to just cry But I don’t And I won't For there’s no tears to shed Why bother staying alive If you’re better off dead I’m not living my life Hell I’m barely surviving I don’t face much strife But I’m certainly not thriving Existing might be A much better choice Of words I won’t utter With my disappearing voice It’s strange to explain This state of being Maybe someone understands Or maybe it’s just me There’s a phrase I hold onto Run daily through my head You might recognize it The words Sherlock said “Alone is what I have Alone protects me” The rest doesn’t matter Not the way I see Lately it’s all I have The words of the fandoms To get me through the day Like a bit of an anthem SuperWhoLock One I’m hoping you’ll know Keeps the gear going But they run rather slow Destiel, Johnlock, Sabriel too Seeking OTP love To replace those untrue This void of my life Which I’m trying to fill Seems pointless at best Maybe now’s for the pill I used to run scared From words such as these Now I write them myself Such strange irony You may want to help But I wouldn’t say try There’s nothing left to save here Just a few little goodbyes If there is no purpose No future I can foresee Then what’s left to hold onto Nothing for me to be I don’t have any goals I’ve tried making some But they’ve not worked before Left me nothing but numb I don’t really want to go But I shouldn’t stay The things I’ve done Such a burden they weigh Maybe it’s a good thing She’s still around My sister, that is Though she’s not quite sound “You’re my best buddy” she says Has said since we were young It’s wouldn’t be fair of me If this upon her I flung And so I’ll stick around Just a little bit longer If I do find a purpose Perhaps I’ll get stronger This note I’ll never show her She can’t ever see The weakness I hide That’s been inside me They’re a blessing, these notes Have always kept me sane As an outlet, an exit From the real world of pain I say I feel nothing That I don’t really care Yet I wrote this in rhyme Maybe there is still a prayer
8: “confessions”
My heart pounds in my ears Love The one word that can both excite And scare But which is it? That in itself is a giant leap forward One that I’m not ready to take Only 2 months into this And it’s already reached that? A part of me doubts Another part doesn’t know what to think It’s possible Not likely But possible Right? I thought it took years To ever truly know a person Perhaps it’s how we met Or just the way I treated him Blind to the meaning of nice? It seems strange To someone raised in this fucked up society Where rules control our everyday life Where expectations are set And people ‘just know’ what things mean Yet there we both sat Miles apart Looking at the same screen And as I explained things I realized Things are not always what they seem Not every was raised like me Not everyone sees things like I do The world from his perspective Was something totally new Raised in total darkness Never knowing anything else I guess I really made a change By just being myself Already I see a difference In the way he’s talking Could I really have this kind of impact? By just being me? I never thought I’d see or hear Such confessions that I did Apologizes for something He really can't control Begging me not to go When we haven’t even met To be needed so strongly That he has nothing else to hold onto Is that why we were fated to meet? There has to be something to this Never before have I seen Such dedication from someone But there are so many different sides of him It’s hard to tell which is the right one Everyone has their perks and faults I sit here and ponder Where do I want this to go? There’s a reason we met There’s no denying that The question of why though Has yet to be answered I want it to be something more Or at least I think I do It’s hard to tell through all this fear Of not knowing what to do Childhood scars That never fully healed Still haunt me to this day And leave my heart in a shield It’s exciting and thrilling And terrifying all at once How do you know what is what? What is truly love?
9: “endeavours”
As I sit here looking at the screen I wonder where to begin It’s hard to believe it’s already been a couple months It seems like just a few weeks It began with the game That’s hardly a surprise With the grouping and missions Help was bound to arise Initial conversations Were just music at first But then we moved on And discovered something worse At first it was curiosity Mixed with a bit of fear But I swallowed my doubts And let myself out And look at where we are now It’s not something I would’ve expected No one could’ve seen this coming I’ve been told it’s a bad idea But they don’t know you The way that I do They’re all just too judgmental They may claim it’s not so But I do know The thoughts that they don’t vocalize It’s called stepping out Letting go of your thoughts And learning to see through other eyes So we’re totally different What's wrong with that? Diversity gets you farther Than a close-minded approach It’s an interesting situation This thing we’ve got going From two different worlds That are more alike than you know A Jedi and a Sith Two ends of the scale Are they really enemies When both want to prevail? What makes one side wrong And the other right One path is the dark The other is the light Neither can exist Without the other A strange concept to consider To redeem or to fall In the end Does it matter? We’re both just people Living our day to day lives The nighttime holds the talking The future – a surprise The unknown should be embraced Not left to sit alone What better way to know the world Than by stepping out of your zone A new friendship has blossomed One that no one quite understands But as long as both are happy Who really gives a damn? It was fate that brought them together Of that much I am certain An opportunity to make a change Will be taken advantage If a spark is lit along the way Let it grow into a fire Don’t throw away A chance like this Life likely won't give you another See where it goes Go with the flow And the rewards to all will be inspired
10: “unbeautiful”
I try to quiet my mind But it’s all over the place My job, my friends, just life in general It’s all around me spinning so fast Like a whirlwind that can't be stopped No matter how much I want it to The mind grows weary The spirit does as well Listening to stories these past couple days Have left it drained and empty It has been this way for a while But there had been something left before Now all that remains Is a very empty hole A void A want A selfish need Watching other enjoy their happiness But also suffering through their struggles The love is there The pain is real At least they have someone To call their own While I sit and wait Giving advice that for experience I don’t even have I’m trying to be supportive I’ve always been good at that Having everyone else’s back And being there to talk when no one else will Everyone relies on me And I’m ok with that But when will they start to see I need someone to give back Being single isn’t all bad But when you’re the only one Watching all the couples around you Having their own special fun Wishing you could have that too Not just someone to talk with But someone to call your own To be that special being in your life When you’re feeling all alone It’s like a nagging void in my soul I just can't seem to shake It’s not because I’m weak Or have no self esteem It’s because I’ve been strong for so long I want someone to take care of me To hold my hand or cuddle with Watching movies on the couch To be randomly kissed and smile about it To have secret inside jokes To feel like I’m wanted And not just for my usefulness But because I feel so alone People around me say I’m special Then why does it not feel so? I love seeing other people happy Let’s be real – who doesn’t? But why is it when they say I deserve the best Am I left with nothing? I don’t want to wait It’s getting too hard And as shallow as it seems Everyone wants to be wanted So why does no one want me? I’ll never say these things out loud Nobody else needs to know They see me as the strong confident one Not the one who feels alone But maybe it’s because it’s been so long Everyone else is finding theirs That special someone to be with them To show them that they care I don’t I can't I won't tell them I’m alone If anything I’ll put on an act A show that I’m just fine It doesn’t need to bother them That the loneliness is killing me inside I can't bear the wait It’s like a bomb waiting to blow But maybe in a few more months I won't feel so alone Maybe I’ll get lucky And find that guy just for me Or maybe I’m just fooling myself And there’s really no one waiting Still it’s hard to guess this soon Before I’m even there I’ll have to wait Despite the pain And life had better be fair I can't be alone Not anymore The wait has taken its toll I’ve been seeing too many couples around In groups of people I know They’re all so happy Putting arms around waists And kisses on cheeks Why don’t I have that? Am I not one to be desired? All this self-doubt looks and sounds so damn shallow Not my fault I was cursed with emotions I’m human Aren’t we all? Being human means we know how to feel And while helping others always feels great Sometimes we need help too I hate admitting it Like I said – I’m the strong one But I’m lonely as hell Despite all the people around me There’s a void not even God can fill I’ve tried and I’ve tried to push it away But it’s like a damn mosquito bite It’s not gone till it bleeds And Band-aids aren’t enough to heal it I’ve been rambling awhile And have pretty much run out of things to say But the hole is still there I can feel it like a heavy stone on my heart I should probably catch some sleep tonight Maybe morning will be brighter
11: “decisions”
Don’t take anything for granted When life gives you an opportunity Take it Don’t question it Enjoy the simple things in life You don’t know how long they will last Be free Be wild Do things you never otherwise done Realize that you have a purpose in life And while you may not see it right now It’s there Waiting for just the right moment to be discovered Grab it Take it Hold onto it like it’s the last thing you’ll see Live life to its fullest Because its worth living Just look around you How can the world not be full of little miracles? Was it fate? I think so Everything happens for a reason And right now That reason is to complete To fill a hole that no one else could To step in when I needed it most Will I keep questioning it? Probably But I will never turn my back on a thing like this Never again will I doubt such a rare chance This is what was meant to be And I will accept it to my every advantage Regardless of where it takes me in the future I can do this I will do this And I will enjoy every second of it
12: “conflictions”
Looking out the window My mind starts to wonder Is this just a farce? Or is there something better? It’s hard to see reality When all I see are pics of you and me Snapchat’s not the greatest source But it’s all I got More than nothing I suppose Questions start to flood my mind How long will this last? Is there even a point? Our conversations are kinda shallow But is that really so wrong? In a world where girls are Barbies Or at least expected to be It’s hard to turn away a guy Who says he likes me Even though he’s across the globe It can't be all wrong Can it? I guess it is always me Who’s asking the real questions “How many siblings? Favorite animal? Do you have plans for college?” I start to suspect there’s something else hidden In that part of your mind that I can't see I haven’t even heard your voice But still I call you ‘boyfriend’ Maybe this is a bad idea Maybe I should just turn away But after years of being alone Its attention that I crave To finally be called cute And told I’m really pretty But is there a point where I should stop When he asks for pics of other things? I won't cave yet I’m not some Barbie But what am I supposed to think When half the time he ignores me? It’s always me who snaps him first Perhaps that is a good thing After all I’m out all day While he is at home snoring Still there is a part of me That’s blaring with the warning That maybe I should still back out Before something happens I want to trust him Even though I shouldn’t But how do you turn away
13: “realisations”
I feel like a fool For not realizing it before You never were the one for me I have no feelings anymore You were a lazy heartless idiot Who never gave a damn I was a crazy sightless spirit Who cared only for the glam I'm done with your excuses You obviously don't care Next time you come to my door I will not be here
14: “empty inside”
The hour felt like a instant The days felt like a minute Unable to think clearly anymore My thoughts are all about you A week before our three month mark You messed up And broke my heart Driving down the road that night I could barely focus My mind was a blur My heart was pounding All I could feel was a dull pain throbbing inside me Even today, three days after that painful hour I feel like the wrong person Empty, with no purpose to my days All my old habits have to be broken And as they break So do the shattered pieces of my heart You were my everything You gave me something to look forward to Now I have nothing left But to vent my frustration to the world Nobody cares And nobody knows Because I'm keeping this secret Close to my soul It doesn't matter what they say I'll still think about you Everyday We may pass by in the hallways But its not the same When you used to put your arms around me I felt as if I could fly All that time we spent together Doesn't it mean anything to you? You claimed we could still be friends But do you really mean it? You haven't said a word to me Not ever since we ended it This pain won't ever go away And I wish that it would stop Its distracting me from reality Keeping me in our lost fantasy When I had you I was complete But now all that's left Is a gaping hole in me I thought that we could make this work But you did not agree You said you didn't have any time Especially not for me I didn't want to believe you then And still I futiely tried To keep you where I wanted you Back when you were mine I still keep my phone with me Every single day Waiting for that text from you Even if it just says "Hey" Maybe someday there will be a chance For us to get back together But until that day comes for us I'll be here waiting...forever
TikTok
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Her most AIDS inducing platform (second only to her DA) where she posts IRL shitty phonecam videos. 90% of them are just her using some shitty filter and the other 10% is just her making TikToks of her driving or doing things in her house. She also sometimes includes her pets (that she possibly raped) in the videos. Is no different then any other ShitTok sharter unless you know what she did. Recently she has rebranded her tiktok account to “hollyday.96”, most likely after her court documents were leaked.
Dickriders
Note for anyone here
If your in this part of the article. if you defect to our side. we will put you in a more favorable light.
spooky heart
spooky heart or spop is one of Elviah's biggest dickriders, she likely has lesbian e-sex with Elviah while she's addicted to content farms (even more then Elviah is due to the unholy amount of art she has of them) just like Elviah. She posts garbage art about the content farms she's addicted to on her Instagram and Twitter. Plays on shartcorners Minecraft server. She, Elviah and some other autist called "Alleycat" make up another shitty group called "the mini legion". Not very much to say about her other then the fact she's Elviah's #1 fan. (or is she?)
END (powerword: Alec Courtney)
Elviah's most notable victim, and the first one to have been groomed. She's a terminally disabled Coloradoan spastic that forcibly spergs out unhinged horrid insults like "WHY DOES RUSSIA HATES ME" or "[Person here] IS GAZA STRIP NOW HAHAHA" or "I LOVE SUICIDE I SEX ON THEM EVERY DAY" and gets trolled the shit out of by the Scourge and it's members. And before she went schizo with her END persona, she went under the alias "Elviah's Fan" and impersonated Elviah herself. She also impersonated some rando called "pete the kitty TV" who sends his own info and acts almost the same as END. What makes this even more schizo is that END, under her PTK alt, has sent and extorted CP multiple times! Also what's notable is that before she was groomed, she (along with Jamie) was bullied ruthlessly by Elviah. Most recently ungroomed himself and no longer follows the Halverson allegedly NVM. Got groomed back into the circlejerk by elviah LMFAO
Rageshart Gallery
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Tiko/Lionarcher
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A terminally online sperg thats either END's alt or a grooming victim. Claims to be ENDs GF and acts the same as END minus the impersonations. Faced the same unfortunate fate as END, but unlike END, he doesn't rage in ALL CAPS. Basically a copy of END overall.
thefallenreality/farose123u
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A tranny autist from Port Said, Egypt that ruthlessly despises Demin and the Scourge for: you guessed it! "stalking" Elviah for "no reason" Yaps on twitter to either advertise his Roblox and Discord or send furry art accounts random videos. Supports Elviah despite the fact that she ruthlessly supports Israel and that TFR is a Palestine supporter. Overall just a spaz.
everyone else
ANGLIM - Welsh spaz that stole Jamie's GF's phone and told him via that phone's text that she was "going to break her legs so she never walks again". Much later ANGLIM was groomed by Elviah but she was VERY inactive and was last seen in 2023.
darkcornersYT - Terminally retarded content farm that leads an army of content farms called "the darknet" also owns a shitty Minecraft server (play.darkscorner.net). Feel free to rape!
Enemies
Jamie/Lich king
The Soviet (Originates from all 15 nations)
Irish founder of Scourge. One of Elviah's worst turned out people. He was hit so hard he became an alcoholic and got IBD. Usually the target for most of Elviah's attacks (especially from Elviah's grooming victims.)
Demin
The one who brought Elviah's empire crashing down and one of the OG members of Scourge. He was the one to dox her and the one who wrote this article. Is a crucial part of the Anti-Elviah movement dispite him going on long periods of inactivity that can last for months. Elviah got SO butthurt that she went on a termination spree and terminated half ALL BUT 2 of his total accounts (most of them were abandoned years ago) so this didnt really affect him since he moved to VidLii. He has recently returned to YouTube.
Everyone else/to be added
- BRODY MIXES - trolled the shit out of END and tiko when demin was away. He is a fan of the Kansas City Chiefs. Has ties to bodroum.just like demin.
- russian patriot - a Chechnian russian that’s usually the second target of ENDs schizobabbling
(Flashback to that russia vendetta)
- ariota4291
- lighting striker
- communist japan empire
The Great Elvian War
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The Great Elvian war | |
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Fought between | 2022-2024 (still ongoing) |
sides | Scourge and allies |
Outcome | STILL ONGOING |
The Elvian War is a war fought between 2022 and 2024. It originally started As a trolling operation against Elviah but after END was groomed, it quickly evolved into an online war where both sides were doing attacks. The Scourge did major attacks such as doxxing Elviah and toxxing ENDs account multiple time while Elviah did attacks such as terminating Demin's channels and grooming more people to use as dildos. As of now, SCOURGE is winning the war due to Elviah having to go into hiding. Even though ASA says THEY are winning the war, even though they aren't.
In late 2022, when they defeated sebs world of fun. Jamie (now known as Lich King) (at the time the owner of Scourge) came out about how Elviah and her friends had ruthlessly bullied him and END (this was before he was groomed) to the point of depression in December 2019. This prompted a response from OG Scourge members (such as ariota, SFBall, vexplade, and the infamous BAD USER STALKER, Demin) to make Wombo videos and attempt to dox her, shortly after in December 2022, END gets groomed by elviah and goes inactive; then returns on Elviahs side as “Elviah's Fan” , forms some larp group called “Legnet”. And for some reason FUNE enters the war on Elviah's side then leaves a week later. After hard fighting, servers getting nuked, And trolling, progress is finally made. Elviah's Fan comes out as END and gets her other fuckbuddies (Tiko and Anglem) to join in on Legnet, now rebranded to ASA, Jamie's mental health drops severely and starts believing in END’s autistic fantasies. In better news, Elviah gets doxxed even more (her address was a faildox) and everything goes back into states of trolling. UNTIL...
On November 30th, Elviah finds out about the doxxing efforts and goes into hiding, privating all her accounts, and then BAWWWs to her friends about how Demin is “STOKANG” her. Then lord xenu (another Scourge member) does a withdrawal from the Elviah war. Where most people agree to this withdrawal with a few people that still want to fight with END. Demin then resorts to toxxing ENDs account. Then the war ends, UNTIL...
In February 2024, Elviah starts terminating Demin's channels on YouTube. This prompts an attack to get revenge on her. The attack was set for March 5th, however due to demin’s Discord account getting disabled, the attack was a failure. No new advances (other than END coming back) until June 2024, when 2 Elviah related servers were found and raided, then Alleycat came forward and wanted to learn about elviahs crimes committed by Elviah. However before she could tell us anything, she went on vacation. Making Elviah's other actions a mystery until the end of summer. Then in August, elviahs criminal record is found and leaked. Elviah then becomes very pissy and rebrands to hollyday.96 on TikTok,
After a short intermission in time, her email and court documents were leaked. Shortly after, Elviah was defeated, however, the circumstances of the victory are to remain secret until december 1st.
How to spot an Elviah rapedog
You can quite easily spot an Elviah rapedog if they have any of the following traits listed below.
- They support Israel and despise Palestine to the point where the fluid in their head that they were born with instead of a brain starts to boil. (mostly found in ASAfags)
- They search, save, possess, and distribute CP.
- They call demin86 a "STUPID STALKER" and misspell his name as "denim".
- They watch and are friends with the content farm youtuber DarkCornersYT. And/or
- They say Elviah did no wrong and deny everything she did (even though one good read of this article would change that.)
- They are racist to every race you can think of (mainly Russians and Slavic countries)
- They spaz out to the point where they look like they belong in a condom commercial. (mostly done by ASAfags)
Crimes committed by Elviah
1: Possession of child pornography - elviah used END (while impersonating pete the kitty) to blackmail snow cat (11-13 years old) into sending him her nudes. (Which were likely sent to elviah)
2: 3-5 counts of contributing to the Delinquency of a minor - groomed END (and many others) into becoming racist, and likely ruined his psyche due to the fact that she rages in caps all the time and now just acts like a spaz in general.
I know elviah did way more then that but none of them are actual crimes and moreso lulzworthy doings.
Vandalism attempts
Surprisingly, there has only been 1 direct vandalism attempt in this pages history, (all others were made by bots that spam the entire wiki) despite the fact that this article is part of what's raping her to death. This vandalism attempt was done by some spaz called "jasiahescobar6" that replaced the gallery and the infobox with some rageshart about "mr grouse" and random images. Unknown if this was an Elviah groom victim or just some rando who got bored and jacked off on the page
trivia
Did you know that?
- Elviah had a dead dog that was named “bella”?
- Elviah also has a cat with 3 legs (elviah used a hacksaw to cut the 4th one off) named ziggy? (not to be confused with the Warsaw admin)
- Elviah likely owns and jacks off to nudes of a 12 year old that END extorted called snow cat?
- Elviah’s sister, Jessica Mariy Halverson, is terrible at driving and has 18 records relating to driving?
- Elviah is Norwegian and irish?
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Anti-Elviah propaganda.
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Elviah's greatest fear.
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Pretty much elviah when she found out the doxxing.
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Tiko/Lionarcher IRL
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Elviah: Behind The Screen.
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Alternate version.
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The garbage commissioned by Elviah (like this) is one of the many reasons why she belongs in an asylum.
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Just as confused as you are.
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Congratulations END! we all still love you. you have been invited to join the child porn army.
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You didn't want it but now you have it. Avert your eyes kids.
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ELVIAH LOVES GAY PORN! [UNCENSORED VERSION https://wiki.bonziworld.org/File:Hellbutworse.png]
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Elviah
lookalikeeats a TOY. Instantly regrets it. -
Why you crying like a bitch aint you tired? Trying to strike a chord and it’s probably a-minorrrr
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The similarities are eerie.
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elviah when she gets her CP stash leaked.
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more halvershit art.
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elviahs dog has a foot fetish.
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external links
socials
@Elviah JewTube channel (BALEETED)
elviah spedcord account (BALEETED)
a discord server home to many of elviahs rapedogs, Troll to your hearts desire. (DELETED BY LUNUS HIMSELF AFTER TPSSEC RAIDED IT WITH THEIR SERVER INVITE AND GORE)
@Elviah_96 Main Twatter (BALEETED)
@halvie_96 Old personal Twatter (HUGBOXXED)
elviah.96 Instagram (BALEETED)
kingsviah an instagram account made for some short lived ship between elviah and some content farm nigger called “kingsfire”
the_mini_legion likely a shared account owned by both spooky shart AND gayviah.
@hollyday.96 Shitock (HUGBOXXED)
elviah DeviantSHART
Steam (BALEETED)
Twitch (BALEETED)
roblox (UNKNOWN IF THIS IS ACTUALLY HER)
Lolmilking/Trolling
Reupload of the afformentioned trolling video on the Elviah/Holly Halverson troll channel on vidlii
Elviah's fanfiction (ARCHIVED)